There is also an original letter, document .052535, record 98458. There is some rewording in this letter from the original.

The original letter is document .052536, record 98459. This version has some omissions and rewording.

The original letter is document .052538, record 98461. This typed version is condensed.

In the original letter (document .052542, record 98464) Colette writes that she is not sending roses this year but instead a gift "In print (via Ralph Schoenman)".

In this typed version she writes that she is sending roses and that she expects he will be glad when his 90th birthday is over. This sentiment does not appear in the original letter.

This letter is dated May 1963. The text is similar to an original letter, document .052543, record 98465, which is dated 15 May 1963.

"Your roses for the 18th".

"Monday".

Helm writes that he received four affidavits from the postmaster that morning.

"Now the fly is in the ointment, Lady Russell had on Friday got on to my wife on unmercifully at me being away on Friday morning (although I had her permission to go) and on Saturday morning tackled me, and I can assure you we had a good do, with the result that we hope to finish here on Saturday first." He informs Coward, Chance that Dora suspects something is going on, but is not sure what, and he tries to make alternative arrangements to go to Petersfield.

He mentions that he talked with Hines that morning, and informed him that "... a most valuable witness, was a man named Marshall who was for a time kitchen man and who Hines says used to sleep at times with different maids; Mrs. Russell knew this of Marshall but dare not row with him as she was doing the same with men about the place."

Davies tells Lloyd that a summons has been issued asking for an order regarding the custody of the children, and offers to send him a copy of the summons. He mentioned that the evidence in support of the summons is almost finished, but no evidence has been filed yet.

Davies writes, "You will remember that I explained to you in April that writs had been issued in the Chancery division, the plaintiffs being the next friend of the Russell children, and the defendants being the trustees of their settlements", and that a summons has been issued regarding the custody of the children.

Davies tells Meynell that he can send him a copy of the summons, "... but I think it would be to more advantage if you could arrange to call here to meet Lord Russell, so that we could explain to you the present position, and answer any questions which you might have to put."

"Thursday evening". Dated by BR.

OM is filled with BR "and the wonder of our love." "It is all so very sacred."

"I could only be happy if you were satisfied ... I feel satisfied the path we have chosen now is the right and inevitable one until we see another."

Meynell tells Davies he would be glad to meet with him and BR to hear more about the Chancery Division proceedings, and proposes 10 o'clock Wednesday morning of the following week, or any hour on Thursday.

Dated by BR.

"I still cannot believe that we are to part having just found each other." OM is again torn between her responsibilities at home and her love for BR.

"Re Lady Russell".

Smith details the events of Thursday, 7 June, 1934. "Two representatives to-day proceeded by car to Southampton docks, and on their arrival they watched all passengers board the tender which left the docks at 3 p.m. No lady answering the description of Lady Russell was seen to leave by the tender." Smith writes that upon the tender's return at 6:50 p.m. no gentleman matching Griffin Barry's description departed. They searched the luggage at "B" bay, but none bore Griffin Barry's tag.

"A Board of Trade official searched the official passenger list of Europa, but the name of Griffin Barry was not shown on the British or alien list, neither did it appear on the printed list of the steamship co's bookings."

Re John Conrad Russell and Katharine Jane Russell by their next friend and trustees.

Davies asks Maw to confirm that Griffin Barry arrived in Southampton on 6 June and was met by Dora, going to, and since staying at, Telegraph House.

Re John Conrad Russell and Katharine Jane Russell by their next friend and trustees.

Maw tells Davies that the answers to his questions of his previous letter are all no; Barry did not arrive in Southampton 7 June, was not met by Dora and has not since been residing with her in Telegraph House.

Re John Conrad Russell and Katharine Jane Russell by their next friend and trustees.

Coward Chance sends copies of the affidavits they will be filing the following day, all of which have all been sworn, with the exception of BR's (not present). They also enclose copies of the exhibits of BR's affidavits, except the deed of separation and settlements (not present).

Davies tells BR that he met with Meynell for two or three hours the previous night, as well as telephoning Lloyd.

"Meynell read all our evidence and said he had not a word of criticism of what we had done. He had told Dora he would see Maw. He said he would write to you. He seemed to think the crux was money, and that what D. really wants is an assurance that in all events she would have £400 a year from you."

He informs BR that copies of all affidavits were sent to Maw the previous night and the originals were filed 13 June.

Davies tells BR that he "... thought it necessary at once to explode the matter of Barry's return, because it would have been impossible to successfully watch and find him", enclosing his correspondence with Maw over the issue (not present). He writes that he sent detective Isles again, who informed him that aside from Europa arriving Thursday, the S.S. Hamburg of the Hamburg American Line at Southhampton and the S.S. President Roosevelt at Plymouth arrived, and that he is still inclined to believe Barry did arrive the previous week, and Dora has been misleading Maw.

Davies notes what BR said about Ben Glue "... and will be considering how best to pump him through Helm, who seems to be trustworthy."

Re John Conrad Russell and Katharine Jane Russell by their next friend and trustees.

Davies thanks Maw for his quick reply to his letter, which was given to Maw by Davies' representative. "You expressed some surprise to my representative when you read the letter which I had written to you, and said that Mr. Griffin Barry was not here, and was not due to arrive yet. My representative then asked you, when is he coming? and you replied that you did not think that you ought to tell us. The impression conveyed by you was that Mr. Barry was expected to arrive in England."

Davies acknowledges that he wrote an unusual kind of letter, but given the circumstances, he did not feel it was unreasonable, reminding Maw that the previous Friday Dora telephoned him asking him to detain BR in London over the following week, which he did until Saturday, 9 June, "... and having heard in the meanwhile that Lady Russell was making arrangements to meet Mr. Barry during that week...."

Re John Conrad Russell and Katharine Jane Russell by their next friend and trustees.

Maw writes that he received Davies' letter of 13 June, expressing dislike for Davies' letter of 12 June, informing Davies he will not be discussing the issue of Griffin Barry's presence in England further.

Davies encloses a copy of a letter from Maw dated June 13, in which he does not repudiate [the claim of] Barry's arrival.

"It puts on record their expectation of Barry's arrival and the intimation from us that Dora may have been deceiving Maw. It has elicited an answer which if possibly correct verbally may be a misrepresentation of the truth, in which case it will be damaging to them."

"We have to remember that during these days Meynell and Lloyd who know the whole of our case are still active in trying independently of us to bring Dora to some point at which accord might be reached."

Davies tells BR that he attended the adjourned summonses "today", with a long wrangle occurring between Mr. Sparrow and Dora's counsel as to the time allowed for evidence in answer. "We urged that the position of the children had to be provided for after July 7th and that it was urgent for the Chancery Judge to consider the matter before the divorce petition was reached." Davies concludes his letter informing BR that what he's most concerned with is Barry.

BR thanks Davies for his letter of the previous day, informing him that he is entirely with him on all he's done.

BR tells Davies that he is willing to continue paying Dora's alimony, regardless of her actions, providing that she is reasonable about the children, noting that he's willing to have them spend half their holidays with her. "Obviously, when she said that at present I am not under a legal obligation to pay her, she was admitting inchastity. If Meynell is right that money is what troubles her, her mind can be set at rest. Given a reasonable arrangement about the children, I should not try to deprive her of the alimony."

BR encloses a letter from Helm (not present), and asks Davies if there's a reason for their not sending out their facts to the King's Proctor at once.

Davies tells BR he has had a long sitting with Helm and encloses a further statement (documents .133977, .133978), which leaves no doubt that Barry met Dora at Telegraph House Thursday, and has since been living there. "Helm hopes to see Gilham on Sunday evening, and will report further to us. There must be another affidavit by Helm and perhaps Mrs. Helm, and also by Hines. The result will be very serious in view of Maw's recent letter."

Davies tells BR that he's been waiting to send the information they have to the King's Proctor, and after his meeting with Helm there seems to be no reason why not.

Davies encloses an extract from the Judicature Act (not present) that shows that anybody can send information to the King's Proctor, as well as enclosing a rough sketch of the sort of letter to be written to the King's Proctor (not present).

Helm writes that he rang Gilham Saturday morning and arranged to meet him 6 p.m. Monday evening. That morning (Sunday, 17 June) Glue called him with a question regarding Telegraph House, "... and whilst talking I said, 'what you brought Barry from Southampton Friday night, he said 'yes', well I said I thought you told me last Friday (June 8) that he was here. The guilt on his face was plain to see and he turned the subject to, oh Gilham says he cannot see you tomorrow (Monday)." Helm is positive Glue is a liar.

Helm refers to document .133977 as being preferable to read first.

Documents .133979—.133980 are missing (pp. 31-6 in the sequence of mimeos).

Prose notes from a telephone conversation with Francis Meynell.

Davies notes that he had informed Meynell and Lloyd of everything they needed to know, and that he had advised BR that he was right not to meet Meynell as no bargaining was possible. Meynell threatened to oppose the Chancery proceedings, as he disagreed with Davies' attitude.

"I then tried to make it clear to Mr. Meynell that, whereas I had said that Lord Russell would be willing to receive any communication through me but no bargaining was possible, it was now clear from Mr. Meynell's threat that his object was to put pressure on Lord Russell to negotiate a settlement, and that Lord Russell's decision not to meet must now be final, and I said that Mr. Meynell and Mr. Lloyd must take what course they thought fit."

BR thanks Davies for his letter and states that Meynell is intolerable, and that he has a hard time believing that Lloyd is with Meynell, so he has written Lloyd a letter, enclosing a copy (document .133983, record 113335).

"It seems to me that, if Meynell and Lloyd are against us, it may be important not to offend the Court of Chancery, which Dora may invoke at later stages. You said the Chancery Judge would be annoyed by your dropping the Chancery suit and sending the papers to the King's Proctor. Clearly we must send them to the King's Proctor, but is it not possible to do this in some way which will not annoy the Judge, e.g. by merely asking an adjournment of the Chancery suit? I don't understand the matter and merely ask for enlightenment."

Document is enclosed with document .133982, record 111333.

BR tells Lloyd that he originally intended to meet with Meynell upon the request, but after realizing he would not be able to pretend to be willing to negotiate Dora's petition he refused the meeting if negotiations were Meynell's intention. He addresses the threat that Meynell proposes, asking Lloyd if he refuses to meet with Meynell, will Lloyd change his solicitor and oppose him? In addition to asking if Lloyd agrees with these threats, BR sets out his reasons for his decision, listing five detailed points.

Original is document .102102, record 116255.

Document .133984 (p. 41) is missing.

Written on the letterhead of Nonesuch Press.

Meynell thanks Davies for the report of the telephone conversation between them and addresses two points which he does not feel are wholly accurate. First he did not say he and Lloyd would oppose the Chancery proceedings, but that they would no longer wish to be represented by Davies, and that he never used the word "bargaining", or anything like it.

Meynell tells Davies that W.H. Thompson will now act as his solicitor in the proceedings regarding the wardship for the Russell children.

Davies thanks Meynell for his response to the telephone report. He informs Meynell that "up to a point in the note I recorded the actual words used by each of us, and towards the end, where my verbal recollection failed, I gave the effect of what was said."

Davies tells Meynell, "You were speaking with some heat and vexation and with an emotion of friendship for both sides, and concern for the general good of society. I am also deeply moved as one of Bertie's oldest and most intimate friends, and with the sense of heavy responsibility as the one supposed to hold the key of the situation from a knowledge of all the personal aspects and legal complexities."

Davies writes that during Meynell's visit of June 12 Meynell informed him that he was concerned as a friend, for both Dora and BR, and that some accord should be reached between them, with the divorce petition in mind.

Document .133988 is missing.

Vera informs BR that Dora wants Francis Meynell to be represented by her solicitor. "He [Francis] said he would do so if she withdrew her claim for sole custody and put forward instead as part of her divorce action a settlement giving equal rights over the children and binding you to some alimony (he is under the impression that your allowance to Dora is ex gratia and not legally binding) and if you refused such a settlement."

She tells BR Francis is willing to meet with him regarding this, as he doesn't want to be Dora's partisan unless BR really acts unfairly.

Meynell writes to tell BR that he's talked to Davies and had discussions with Dora and her solicitor, and that all believe it is possible to withdraw the divorce petition by Dora. He asks BR if he and Lloyd can meet him as soon as possible.

Meynell tells BR that "we" are not acting for Dora, but as friends of BR and Dora's to suggest the best arrangements possible for the children, starting on the assumption that BR's legal custody must ultimately be preserved, believing they can make Dora agree to this.

"We have access to Dora; we are denied access to you. You told Vera what you wanted; and she tells me that you yourself suggested seeing me. Well, then. I believe that we can prise Dora away from her litigious advisers; will you not at least hear what Lloyd and I have to say (saying is obviously infinitely more satisfactory than writing) despite Ll. Davies's attitude?"

Re Anne Russell's wish to transfer from the Bath Academy to the art school at Stoke-on-Trent. She has been offered help by Susan Cooper-Willis.

The attached notes, in Edith Russell's hand, concern the transfer.

John Conrad Russell's report card with subject comments signed by 3 teachers plus the principal (Spencer).

John Conrad Russell's report card with subject comments signed by 4 teachers plus the principal (Spencer).

"Friday morning". Dated by BR.

"... for when you write or speak you echo my own thoughts my dearest." OM asks BR for "some poetry Dearest and mark some bits you like ... I do want you to Teach me to think with you."

Company stayed late last night and OM is tired.

"... of being on my knees in awe and worship and in utter humility for the gift of you." [OM often uses religious metaphors and diction to describe BR and their relationship].

"Friday night". Dated by BR.

The thought of BR is always with her and makes her happy.

OM had company last night including Mrs. Scott and her husband, Desmond M., Roger, Barker, the McTaggarts who were with Dora S. Bangwells, Gile Epstine Basil de Selincourts and the Stephen group—including Lytton Strachey, and others.

Lamb came up for the night.

"In the train Sat." Dated by BR.

OM is with Philip looking for houses in Leatherhead. She hopes to get in the country where she can rest and think and write to BR.

Lamb stayed until Monday and asked for her advice on "frames and work like things."

She tells BR not to get her Synge to read as she has bought it. "Deirdre" is one of his most lovely things ever written.

She asks to meet BR Wednesday afternoon on a short walk to Putney Heath or Kensington Gardens. OM tells BR to attend the Suffrage meeting and says it is okay if BR meets Philip in public.

She will find more time to write to BR once Lamb is gone. Mr. Sydney Turner visited last night. OM has never met F. Schiller.

Goldie Dickinson writes that "He needs clearing out and to get his own sight clearer...."

OM wants to read Crompton, Kavine and Balzac. She writes of a special "vision" her and BR share.

"Monday night". Dated by BR.

Ottoline is longing for their meeting on Wednesday. Lytton Strachey has stayed for a long time.

Ottoline says she does not idealize BR but sees him as he is, "very very beautiful". BR idealizes Ottoline—she writes that his love will lift her up to BR's "ideal" of her.

Dated by BR. "Tues. morning".

On their similarities of taste in poetry, she says that Blake is nearest to her but she also finds Shelley enchanting. "That we have all this in common and you will show me such treasures I don't know of yet." She also likes Keats.

She makes plans to meet at Chinel (a small picture gallery).

Ottoline is "distressed about Alys and for all your trouble". She wishes Mrs. Whitehead could "restrain" Alys and convince her to separate from BR for 3 months. She asks BR to tell Mrs. Whitehead that she cannot come to tea.

"Tues. night". Dated by BR.

She asks BR to bring his bag "there" and on from there to Waterloo. Philip won't be in all afternoon and evening.

"Wed. morning". Dated by BR.

Philip won't mind that BR comes to the house—as long as he (Philip) is not in at the time. "Naturally I don't think he liked seeing you but it was nothing to worry about."

She tells BR not to worry about Mrs. Whitehead (?).

"Wednesday morning."

BR is depressed and OM attempts to comfort him. Love "is like a companionship and presence even in the darkest moments." She says her letters are "stupid and obvious".

"You need not worry about the religious difficulty. When I gave up that man I thought differently to what I do now...."

"Wed. night". Dated by BR.

OM just saw BR and wishes to see him again: "If only we could have long hours and days of talking but I must not be impatient we shall by degrees—there will be ways."

She is glad he told her about Alys: "I long to know every detail of your life darling."

Mr. Leith Ross is there (his wife died after 4 months of marriage) and helped Philip at an election, so Ottoline cannot write any longer. "I have to talk and feel so horrid for I keep thinking of you instead."

"Thursday". Dated by BR.

OM is busy getting servants to Studland. She goes down Saturday morning: Cliff End, Studland, Dorsetshire.

Blake: a "beautiful token".

She is off to see a play, Ibsen's The Master Builder with Philip.

"Thurs. night". Friday morning. Dated by BR.

OM is anxious to know if BR has talked to Alys. She saw Ethel S.: "She (Ethel) seemed to think it would be impossible for A to bring me in if she went for a separation...." OM says they should be careful until Alys is calmer. Why cannot people let us love one another." Alys is a "disturbing creature—poor soul."

Later. 1 am. Ottoline talked with Mrs. Whitehead and she is nervous for OM. Danger to BR's work at Cambridge is "the greatest", but says surely Alys would not want to ruin it. "Mrs. Whitehead bothers me a little ... she sees so many complications ... but I do like her very much." 

OM thinks they are giving Alys too much power. She wishes no one knew about their love affair. "I do not bother a bit about the harm Alys could do me."

She enjoyed the play The Master Builder and asks BR what he thinks of it. OM met with Mr. R. Ross who was buying pictures at the Contemporary Art Society. She also met with Mrs. Davis. She had tea with Mr. A.M. Fish, Mr. S. Turner, and Ethel Sands.

OM asks BR if he could visit at Studland. As Desmond will be staying the night, why can't BR?

Dated by BR.

OM says she is "too stupid to help you intellectually" but could help him with her intense belief in him and his work. OM wants to read Spinoza.

Philip is away from Studland the Tuesday after Easter until the Friday—asks BR is he could come then. OM saw Mrs. Whitehead after she had seen Alys.

"Sat. morning".

OM will move to Studland soon and asks BR if he will come to Studland to see her.

Mrs. Whitehead thought Alys "genuine and that she really wants to be good." OM says of Alys and BR: "I do feel for her very much and yet for your sake I hate you two to be in one tiny house."

Dated by BR.

"We are just off" (to Studland). "I am feeling so happy to be going. I feel as if I were getting free to think of you and rest and write and think and think."

"In great haste Sunday". Dated by BR.

Philip gone to London Monday to Wednesday. OM asks BR to come even though he is not feeling well.

"Sunday". Dated by BR.

OM's letter upset BR and she is upset because her letters upset him. She is ill with an infected liver attack. OM has something to tell BR and hopes to see him Monday or Tuesday.

"Sunday and Monday morning". Dated by BR.

OM recalls her childhood—days at Welbeck—religious at age 12. When her mother died she lived at Portland: "a horrid life". She loved getting away to read and think in the woods. On Mother Julian she says "A very wonderful wise old lady to whom I am devoted." OM was sent to St. Andrews, not wanting to attend Oxford or Cambridge. She attended lectures on logic, "of all things".

"Love itself is the joy and all that it means communion of soul and uplifting and communion in thought and beauty but somehow to me all these have when they are profoundly beautiful some great strange tragic note."

"Monday". Dated by BR.

Re Alys OM says she keeps her "protogés in a separate house" to BR in order to let BR work. 

Philip is looking for someone to be a secretary and asks BR if Mr. Dakyns would care for the job.

OM says she heard that Lord Russell (i.e. Frank) made "an extraordinary good speech in the House of Lords last year."

BR much appreciates Rosenbaum's kindness in having his letters to Moore photocopied.

"Monday evening." Dated by BR.

OM's only fear is hurting Philip—he is good and generous ... and really devoted to me I believe like a devoted brother."

OM did go to Oxford—lectures on Roman History and worked on Political Economy with a Miss Deverell. At St. Andrews she got to know Asquith (comments on Asquith, lent her books, T.H. Green).

"Tuesday morning".

OM is feeling well and is very happy, "longing" for BR.

OM received a letter from Logan asking if he could come to visit. "Logan says Ray is here!"

"Tuesday." Dated by BR. She tells BR that he must tear up all of her letters.

On religious beliefs, she says that BR attacks religion in the cause of truth, which does not bother her. OM believes in her spiritual belief because "with my soul I feel it to be true". She does not believe in regular church dogmas.

OM is reading Blake.

"Wed. afternoon." Dated by BR.

OM is feeling sad and melancholy, longing for BR. She feels intensely for him and tells BR to write to her of his thoughts. She is sitting out on the sands reading a volume of Shelley. 

"Thursday evening."

Philip is leaving Tuesday and BR is to come. She met George Trevelyans—Mrs. G.T. makes OM feel "naughty and wild" and acts superior.

OM is looking forward to the arrival of BR's book. She will read John Woolman's Journal. 

OM will tell Logan that BR will be at the house when he visits, also Sydney Turner will be coming the following weekend.

Dated by BR.

OM is feeling sick with a cold. Lamb and Lytton Strachey show up. Logan visits today.

BR is all that is "noble and great". Life is more "sacred and full of grandeur" because of BR.

"Good Friday". Dated by BR.

Philip is gone for a walk with Lamb and Graham Wallas. She is looking forward to seeing BR on Tuesday.

Saturday. Philip is gone golfing and she is alone. OM mentions the possibility of having a child.

"Saturday morning." Dated by BR.

OM has been reading over BR's letters. Logan arrives in the evening. She will see BR in two days.

"Sat." Dated by BR.

OM will meet BR on the road before he gets to Studland. She wants BR to "make friends" with Julian.

"Sunday afternoon." Dated by BR.

BR writes to her that "our love" fills him with "fresh life and vigour and insight".

Logan is in good spirits. George and Charles Trevelyan visited. Miss Cox came with Miss Darwin, and OM liked her. Monday morning. OM is looking forward to Tuesday. Desmond MacCarthy is coming at 8 am.

BR wrote and said he did not think OM beautiful at first which pleases her. "I do care that you think I express externally what I am within."

"Friday". Dated by BR.

"Intense life and joy and energy and all things good and it is you who have given them to me."

"Friday night." Dated by BR.

"I want to read more. I want to be much better and truer and nobler for you." OM visited the Graham Wallas's—depressed because of the death of the little child.

"Saturday evening." Dated by BR.

OM is reading BR's book [Philosophical Essays]—she has only read the "Study of Mathematics". She mentions BR's "marvellous power for writing" and comments on his writing style.

"Sunday morning, 10 o'clock."

She loves to hear everything that BR can tell her about himself. "My whole being seems to be united to you my love, physically and spiritually it is a wonderful feeling."

"Sunday." Dated by BR.

Mrs. Whitehead has German measles.

Philip is going to People Suffrage meeting and says BR should go also.

She doesn't want to talk about herself and BR to Ethel.

"Monday". Dated by BR.

OM does contemplate leaving Philip, but she has great feelings of tenderness for him—he is devoted and gets pleasure from OM and Julian.

OM met Herbert Samuel and Charles Trevelyan: "They are so dull they came in to see me."

OM asks BR how he got on at Ely. She wonders if he will show up at the Whiteheads on Friday or Saturday. She wonders "how Bergson suffered under you?"

"Tues. afternoon". Dated by BR.

BR is coming to Bedford Square at about 12 (Philip goes to the house then and they could lunch together). OM asks BR if he will remain there for Saturday and Sunday. If not, she says she could travel to Cambridge and meet him there.

"Tuesday". Dated by BR.

OM is no longer troubled about Philip since she sees that her relationship with BR is "real and deep" and not simply "a passing thing". OM has always felt that Alys guarded BR away from her, and comments on first meeting BR. OM was happy with Philip but has "... an inward longing for what now you give me...."

"Wed. evening: in the train." Dated by BR.

OM comments on BR's "The Free Man's Worship", calling it "incredibly beautiful". "The only thing I think that I differ from you is that I have more ultimate hope."

OM has read most of John Woolman.

Logan told her that BR gave away part of his capital. OM has talked with Oliver Strachey. She asks BR about Oliver Strachey and Mr. Verrall.

OM wants to know what the doctor said about BR's mouth.

She would like to see the picture of BR's mother and his books again.

OM says that she could never speak to anyone the way she does to BR, except for Mother Julian.

"Thursday morning". Dated by BR.

OM thanks BR for his letters and for sending the MS (unidentified).

Lamb is coming so she will not be able to see BR.

She has plans to get a room at Waverly. Philip is extremely busy.

OM is relieved that the doctor found BR in satisfactory condition.

"Thursday". Dated by BR.

OM mentions how she feels about the Doctor and that she is only thankful.

Ethel Sands has come to visit OM.

OM asks to meet BR at the British Museum, in order to go to Richmond.

"Thursday". Dated by BR.

OM thanks BR for the letters he sent her to read. She mentions Mark Rutherford's books and how she likes his letters.

Lamb is planning to come. Dr. Henley is giving OM inoculations for her headaches.

OM comments on BR's writings: "They are a revelation to me." She mentions BR's article on Spinoza.

"I dare not think of what the Dentist told you. You don't really want to die now darling do you? You are mine now darling and even to think of it for an instant is like tearing part of me away."

"Cambridge. Meet me British Museum 11:35. Ottoline."

Dated by BR. (He wrote an "8" over her "7" in "April 27 1991".)

OM had an awful parting from BR. She expresses her love for BR: "The love I felt before I thought was great but it was nothing to what I now feel. You gradually and surely are draining me wholly into you my wonderful one who absolutely satisfies me."

"Saturday". Dated by BR.

OM is about to see a house at Ford Sussex. 

She tells BR that she sent a note to Great Western Hotel Paddington and wonders if he received it.

"Sat. in the train." Dated by BR.

OM replies to BR's letter, expressing that she can be herself with BR: "One generally has to shut away 3/4 of one's nature of one's ideas because they would be misunderstood or not understood but with you dearest I don't feel this at all."

BR has never hurt her (except his letter to Burnley). She mentions BR's love of beauty. She tells BR to let her know if he is dissatisfied with her.

Desmond and his wife are coming to dinner. Lamb turned up late.

OM says that she likes Mrs. Whitehead and would become friends with her if she would allow it.

"Later".

There is no room in the hotels—ask Ethel Sands to let them go there in the afternoon.

She will meet BR at Portland Road.

She plans to meet BR Friday at King's Cross and she will write to let him know.

Dated by BR.

OM discusses their relationship. "It depends on me really as much as you—If I failed you I should expect to run risk of losing you!" She says that they both have a right to be called "inconstant" but OM says she is not.

"Monday night." Dated by BR with a query.

"Tuesday morning." Dated by BR with a query.

OM expresses her love for BR. She has so much to say but cannot put her feelings for him into words.

OM has received a letter from Logan which she will show BR.

The doctor is coming to give her another inoculation for her headaches.

Dorelia stayed until 1 o'clock.

"Tuesday evening". Dated by BR.

OM discusses Lamb: "... he is as if 'possessed' by some wicked spirit and is quite impossible." Philip was silent at dinner. OM felt sorry for him.

BR is "... far far ahead and richer and more wonderful..." than she. BR asked her if she is sad. She replies: "... sadness that comes from great solemnity...." "Yes my Bertie when I kiss you it is as if my whole soul came to you and touched yours."

BR mentioned his grandmother to her. OM says: "I wish I had a clearer memory of your grandmother. I remember her very dimly."

OM discusses [possibly in connection with Philip, as she mentions no name] jealousy and selfishness.

"Wednesday morning in bed." Dated by BR.

OM comments on jealousy and had a talk with him (Philip? Lamb? She does not mention a name).

She is longing for Friday. Philip is back on Sunday at 5:40. She expresses love for BR.

"I am sure you were right to attack that poor young man and make him know himself as well as showing him in his reality to the young lodge."

OM takes Mr. and Mrs. Graham Wallas to Shaw's play tonight.

"Wed." Dated by BR.

Lamb is off to Paris. OM is having the Graham Wallas' over for dinner.

Julian is not feeling well and a doctor was sent.