"Tuesday night." Dated by BR.

OM fears that BR will write to say that he will not be able to come.

She loves hearing of BR's early days. Their personalities are "really sympathetic".

"Sunday night." Dated by BR.

Philip is upset at the idea of OM leaving him. BR wants her to leave Philip.

Roger Fry delighted OM, telling her how changed BR was—more happy.

"Philip is so pleased to see me so well and gay that I think he would like me to go out with you any day of the year...."

"Monday." Dated by BR.

"I want you to change me for I admire everything you are so much that I want you to make me more like you."

"Even if we cannot create children I know we too must create some great good but it must be you darling who will express it."

"Monday night late." Dated by BR.

Desmond came about Brial Lectures. Sydney Turner is dining with them.

Tomorrow OM will take the 11 o'clock train to see BR.

"I laughed aloud when I read that anyone called you 'anaemic'."

"Tues." Dated by BR.

OM will leave by 11:10 and will arrive by 12:30. She will drive to the New Quad of Trinity. "I hope I shall be mistaken for Mrs. Webb. I will try and dress like her."

"Wednesday night." Dated by BR.

OM writes of their last meeting: "Every moment was divine. ... If I were free here I should be utterly your slave."

Dated by BR.

OM wants BR to be with her at Peppard in July.

She fears that she is not intellectual enough for BR. "My only fear is that you must get tired of me when you find out my poor intellect when that awful day of argument comes...."

Mrs. S.W. arrives soon.

"Thursday in bed." Dated by BR.

A short note. She asks if BR enjoyed Mrs. Webb.

"Poor Porter do comfort him tell him nothing matters like that to people who love and who are happy."

"Friday. In the train." Dated by BR.

OM comments on Roger Fry. She saw Miss Dakyns at a concert and she introduced her to her eldest brother.

OM does not agree entirely with BR about God and a future life.

"I have your Grandmother's life with me to read."

"Friday night en route to Paris." Dated by BR.

OM met Clifton Brock on the boat and he talked most of the time.

She is thinking of BR all of the time.

"Sat. morning." Dated by BR.

OM has a book of poems that she wishes to share with BR.

"Sat. Paris." Dated by BR.

OM loves to read Carlyle. She tells of her experiences in Paris.

"Monday morning." Dated by BR.

OM cannot wait to sit and talk to BR. "I know you would not really wish to take away my belief only to help me see clearly."

"Monday night." Dated by BR.

OM will see BR Wednesday at Bedford Square.

"It is so horrid to have anything at the back of our minds not cleared up and I think when we have talked it will be all right."

"Special greetings to you with all my being Ottoline".

"Sat." Dated by BR.

She has had people visiting since 7:00 pm. She asks BR to come Monday at 10:30.

"You do make living grandly my Bertie."

Dated by BR.

A note to greet BR in the morning.

Desmond is over to talk of Brial, Dickinson also.

"Tues. 1 o'clock." Dated by BR.

Logan came and went quickly. "He was very wild and exaggerated...." She says that she will tell BR about it tomorrow.

"Tues."

"I haven't heard from you...."

"Tues. afternoon." Dated by BR.

She talked with Logan. "I feel sure Alys and Logan can be calmed."

"Dated by BR."

"Good night my darling. You were good to me today. It was such happiness just lying holding your hand. I love you more and more. Your O."

"Tuesday." Dated by BR.

OM liked BR's lecture on Spinoza.

Logan sent OM a long letter which Philip read. Philip thinks it best to have a talk with Logan. OM is writing to Logan to have him come and see them at Newington. OM encloses Logan's letter.

"You don't think it would do good for me to see Alys would it?"

"Thursday night late." Dated by BR.

Ponsonby, Noel Burton and Bernard Holland came to dinner.

Mrs. Crompton came this afternoon for a visit. Mrs. Phillimore and then Mrs. Prothero came as well.

"Friday." Dated by BR.

OM thinks that they will make Logan and Alys see clearly.

She is going to Newington soon with Desmond.

Dated by BR.

OM hopes that the change to London will rest BR. She tells him not to worry about A (Alys?).

Dated by BR.

She asks if BR likes Wordsworth's "Prelude".

Mildred Scott came to lunch.

"Friday night." Dated by BR.

She longs for a letter from BR.

"Ethel will talk to Logan and do all she can."

"7.30 a.m." Dated by BR without the year.

OM writes of her passion and love for BR: "... utter thankfulness to you and worship."

"Sunday night." Dated by BR.

Logan is alarming Philip and Ethel. Alys wishes to separate BR and OM. There is a talk of scandal. Logan thinks that the affair between BR and OM is wrong.

"Monday morning." Dated by BR.

BR's letter comforts her. OM hopes that after "the storm has subsided", everything will be okay."

"Monday." Dated by BR.

OM thinks Logan prejudiced Ethel against them. She comments on Ethel.

OM discusses the problems they are encountering now and hopes that they will subside.

"Je suis avec toi toujours".

"5 min. after you left!"

Dated by BR.

"Thursday." Dated by BR.

She mentions reading some of BR's papers last night—possibly "Prisons" or "Pilgrimage of Life". It is difficult for her to get privacy as Philip comes in to talk and Julian runs in and out. She dare not think of a day of choice between Philip and BR.

The transcription in the file is footnoted by K. Blackwell.

She mentions "Pragmatism", one of BR's essays in his Philosophical Essays.

OM is impatient for BR's popular book. She says it is nice of BR to share his work with her.

Philip is at Burnley—he is M.P. there. BR is coming next Wednesday. OM is busy with a Contemporary Art Party.

The transcription in the file is footnoted by K. Blackwell.

"Sat. evening". Dated by BR.

Philip is busy at Burnley. Lytton Strachey is staying for awhile. She plans a meeting.

"Sunday." Dated by BR.

OM lists her plans for the week.

Mr. Amos is nice and very fond of BR.

"Did you enjoy the Playboy?"

"Monday." Dated by BR.

She tells BR about what they did for Philip's birthday.

Philip is reading John Donne to OM. She comments on Donne. She recalls when she was first married to Philip and he used to read to her.

Dated by BR. The transcription in the file is headnoted by K. Blackwell.

OM plans for BR to visit her again at Peppard Cottage.

Lytton Strachey is with OM and she likes him.

Dated by BR.

OM is lying in bed writing to BR. She plans to meet with BR as Philip is not coming until Friday.

"Friday evening". Dated by BR.

OM writes on love and passion.

She hopes it was not "dreadful" for BR to meet Philip.

"Firday night." Dated by BR.

OM writes on love, passion, union and happiness.

"Saturday morning." Dated by BR.

She will meet with BR on Tuesday.

OM wants to read Plato, Berkeley and Descartes.

Philip did not mind meeting BR.

She is delighted in hearing of BR's work (she does not say what exactly she heard).

"Saturday afternoon." Dated by BR.

OM thanks BR for the enclosed letters from Mrs. Trevelyan and Miss Harrison. The letter from BR's brother is "strange indeed".

She is glad that Mrs. Whitehead is nice.

Philip had a telegram from Geoffrey Howard stating that Jonathan Sturges died of a heart failure.

"Sunday morning." Dated by BR.

OM has read some of the symposium, which she comments on.

She outlines her day's events. She will go to Henley with Mrs. M. to church.

"Sunday evening." Dated by BR.

OM had lunch with Mrs. Harrison and Mr. Harrison. Her mother-in-law also came.

She is going to see a house next Sunday with Philip.

OM is seeing Mrs. M. off and is getting ready for London. She is sorry to leave the country for London.

Dated by BR.

"Your cigarettes are delicious."

OM writes on her love and passion for BR: "I love you ever more and more—and every moment with you is Divinely Beautiful! It gets better and better." Her feeling towards Philip is all that she could wish.

The transcription in the file is annotated by K. Blackwell.

"Tuesday night." Dated by BR.

OM went to the Colosseum Music Hall. Mrs. Desmond, Roger, Clive Bell, Arnold Bennetts and Mrs. Phillimore were all there.

"Alys wrote to Mrs. Desmond and to Mrs. Phillimore—whom hasn't she written to!"

"Wednesday." Dated by BR.

Ethel is to visit in the evening.

She loves reading BR's letters (5 of them just in the morning!)

She encloses a book (she does not give the title or author of the book).

"Wednesday night." Dated by BR.

Ethel and OM go to the House to hear Philip speak.

Contemporary Art pictures are arranged.

She is longing to see BR.

"Thursday." Dated by BR.

OM's head is very bad. "But this horrid thing will soon be over and then I will be free to think of you."

"Friday night."

OM loved watching BR talk with Philip today.

Ethel Sands visited. She is a painter and lives at Newington near Oxford.

OM went to the Whiteheads. They were shocked to see her as Alys was supposed to visit, so she left quickly.

She is with her cousin, Ethel Portal. Alys wrote to Portal.

OM had dinner with the Dakyns. After dinner with the Dakyns, she went to the Sangers and Vaughan Williams, Duncan Grant and Smyth were there.

The transcription in the file is footnoted by K. Blackwell.

"Sat."

OM mentions Sheffords—last year she was there with Mrs. Trevor and Bobbin.

She is longing to be with BR. "I wish someday people could recognise that we belonged to each other but I don't know if it would ever be possible certainly not for the present on account of Alys."

"Saturday 6.40." Dated by BR.

OM is not feeling well. The doctor is giving her medication for her headaches.

She is off to Oxford in the morning and plans to meet BR the next day.

"Sunday." Dated by BR.

OM is too ill to go to Oxford. She can meet BR on either Tuesday or Wednesday.

"Sunday in bed." Dated by BR.

OM is sorry that BR is distressed. She worries about Alys, Logan and Roger too. "When Alys and her friends have composed themselves our two lives will be much simpler I think not complicated."

The Spanish girls are coming at 5.

She is seeing BR tomorrow.

"Come now lunch here Ottoline".

"Please come at once Ottoline".

"Tuesday night." Dated by BR.

OM is going to Peppard on Monday. Desmond and his wife come on Monday.

She called Roger. He would like a definite understanding some time.

Dated by BR.

OM had drops put in her eyes and so could not see correctly. Her letter is extremely messy (illegible in parts).

She invited Desmond and his wife and Goldie D. for dinner on Monday.

Dated by BR.

OM asks "who is the impertinent Waterloo"?

She writes on Roger and his attitude towards Ottoline and BR.

Dated by BR.

Mildred Scott telephoned and is coming to tea.

OM wonders if Mr. Waterlow is a friend of the Bells.

She asked Goldie D. to come to Peppard to meet the Desmonds.

BR is coming on Wednesday or Thursday.

Basu is the name of the Indian sage who lunched with them.

Dated by BR.

An American, Mrs. Chadbourne and two friends visited. OM comments on hating rich Americans.

She encloses a letter from Mr. Whitehead. BR's friend Mr. Jourdain would like to see his letter also.

She tells BR to write to Black Hall Oxford and asks for Aunt Agatha's address.

"Saturday afternoon." Dated by BR.

OM went to visit her "old blind woman".

BR is coming to Peppard on Wednesday or Thursday. Goldie is coming on Tuesday.

OM cannot see the oculist so she will postpone the visit.

Vanessa talked to OM about Mr. Waterlow being unhappy.

She is distressed that BR cannot write to Karin.

Dated by BR.

OM comments on Goldie D. calling him "delightful".

She writes about an interesting letter from Karin who cares for philosophy.

OM asks what BR thinks of Melian Stawell. She mentions Mr. Jourdain's letter.

She is glad to be away from London.

"Sunday." Dated by BR.

OM will write to BR's aunts. She is sorry about Mr. Dakyns (death?).

She will not go to London on Wednesday. She is telling the oculist to change the appointment to Saturday, when she passes through London on the way to the Phillimores.

"Sunday night." Dated by BR.

OM would like to live at Broughton, near Banbury.

She comments on Mrs. M. Morrell, calling her selfish and mean. She also comments on Mrs. Morrell's friend, Sir Thomas D. Lauden. Mrs. Morrell opened a letter to OM from BR and asked who it was from. OM said that it was from Lytton Strachey. "Think what a scandal. Now she will even weave Lytton S. and me."

Humphrey Paul came for lunch.

The transcription in the file is footnoted by K. Blackwell.

"Monday 6.30." Dated by BR.

OM is sending a letter to Rozeldene.

She met the MacCarthys at Reading. Yeats was with them.

Mrs. Desmond is "nervous and shy".

Goldie is coming tonight.

OM plans to meet BR again.

"Tuesday morning." Dated by BR.

OM discusses her plans for the week.

Mrs. MacCarthy is there and she is "very nice but very nervous and shy."

OM writes on her love and passion for BR. She will write to More's Gardens tonight. 

"Tuesday." Dated by BR.

H. Graham Dakyns has died.

Mrs. Desmond is reading "Free Man's Worship", "which she likes immensely."

Goldie talks of BR a good deal and is fond of him.

The transcription in the file is headnoted by K. Blackwell.

"Wednesday." Dated by BR.

OM thinks it would be best if they met at Reading so BR would not meet Desmond and Goldie.

"Wednesday." Dated by BR.

OM mentions her dream of a "fidelling toy heart" that BR had.

She writes of when Philip, Desmond and Dickinson will be around, as she is trying to find a time to meet with BR.

"Sat." Dated by BR.

OM writes of her love and passion for BR. She talked to Lamb and attempted to explain to him how she feels about BR. "Lamb very selfish and vain".

Dated by BR.

OM comments on Lamb.

OM is needing glasses which will hopefully get rid of her severe headaches.

Philip, Ethel and Mrs. Phillimore are at a distance from her and are discussing incomes and expenditure. She comments on Mr. Phillimore: "He seems like a haunted creature".

OM discusses the possibility of having a child. "It would enrage Alys." She thinks, perhaps, she is pregnant and writes that she does not have the maternal instinct.

OM and BR are meeting at Ipsden on Friday.

"Sunday evening." Dated by BR.

OM read Keats and Blake last night.

"Mr. Phillimore is really sympathetic and charming when he gets on to those things, but I dislike the mean commercial side of him."

She had lunch with Philip in London and Freebody and Lamb joined them. OM is looking for a ring for BR while shopping.

"Tuesday." Dated by BR.

OM is not pregnant as her "'lady' has come".

She has had some good talks with Lamb and he is much happier now.

"Wednesday." Dated by BR.

OM discusses the operation she had and the possibility of not having a child. She thanks BR for telling what he went through and says: "I think it was wrong of the doctors."

"Adrian Stephen and Duncan Grant arrived at the Dog last night."

Lamb thinks that BR has done OM some good.

She might go to London to see the Russian ballet and asks BR if he would like to go.

"Wed. evening." Dated by BR.

OM lists the times when the train leaves for London and asks BR which time is convenient.

OM has the ballet tickets.

Adrian Stephen and Duncan Grant have gone. OM does not care for Adrian Stephen.

"Thursday."

OM discusses Lamb and his character. He is going back to France on Tuesday.

BR tells her of North (Whitehead) and she finds him interesting.

A card providing an address: "Mrs. Lindsay, The Post Office, Ipsden, Wallingford." The card may not actually be addressed to her.

Dated by BR.

The question of children saddens OM.

She tells BR: "Don't speak of my love ending."

"12 midday. Saturday." Dated by BR.

OM writes that she could make BR enjoy the Gallery Pictures.

She must talk with Roger to get to the truth "of it" (?).

Balfour is repelling to her.

Lamb likes and admires BR.

"Sunday morning." Dated by BR.

OM is making plans for when BR could come (when Philip is away). She wishes BR could be closer to her.

BR can do religious writings in quiet times between his philosophic work.

"Continued Sunday." Dated by BR.

OM is reading BR's MS (possibly Prisons or The Pilgrimage of Life).

She wishes that BR lived closer. She dreams of them reading together. 

"I am very sorry about North...."

Dated by BR.

OM is talking to Lamb.

The doctor came to give her an injection.

Philip would not mind BR being near Broughton.

"The enclosed please read and destroy. I have answered it."

"Thursday morning." Dated by BR.

OM is longing for BR to come. She is anxious to begin their readings.

"... if Alys settles down people would not think it odd your being near us."

OM has been reading BR's letters over.