"Sat." Overwhelmingly compensated by her letter.

"6 p.m." Independence of women within marriage.

Phillimore. Wedgwood read paper, "It's best believing if we may"; discussion on religious work in East End [of London]. "My thorough-going scepticism with respect to knowledge".

Dining at the Marshalls' to meet the Bishop of Peterborough. "Feb. 5" His moods very temporary. Alys's mother wonderfully unselfish. "Sir Frederick Pollock, whom thee mentions in thy letter to Logan as the rudest man in England, is the author of a book on Spinoza which I have lately read and which seems to me every way admirable; besides being very well and interestingly written it displays an amount and variety of learning before which my brain reels. It is a very Apostolic book, being written by one brother and dedicated to another (W.K. Clifford)."

Liked Les Messieurs Golovleff immensely. Met Horace Darwin at dinner last night. Bishop's wife = Mrs. Creighton. If he would shave moustache and dress like a woman, he could get in to hear Newnham debates—a sort of Burton!

"11 p.m." Glad the part about Alys in his journal made her happy. Sanitation. Read good story in ms. by Sickert; but "except in lyric poetry I would never trust my own taste a bit." Would like to get some notion of Newman's style so may read The Idea of a University; but prejudiced against the class of mind. Can he see her article being sent to the Nineteenth Century? Oxford vs. Cambridge. McTaggart. Learning Descartes' three proofs of God's existence and their fallacies. Sex Love by Edward Carpenter—"the only good thing I ever read on the subject".

Meeting tomorrow.

Her article accepted. ["A Reply from the Daughters."] McTaggart opposes trip to Germany. Their meeting was heavenly.

Alys's temperance work in religious difficulty. (Atheism spreading rapidly in all classes.) Meeting and/or concert every evening this week. Moore's debut in Society (excellent description). Told Marsh about Alys. Read Wild Duck aloud with Crompton and Sanger. Glad Alys likes Carpenter's book. Religion vs. fear of authority in his childhood ("I have a fairly minute recollection of my childhood"; "till I was fifteen and began to think for myself").

"Wednesday morning" Her proofs. "Conceit is a delightful feeling and very useful to help one through with one's work...." Similarity of their religious upbringing. Enthusiasm for scepticism. Theo. Davies back from Berlin—waste of time for work, both in philosophy and economics; talked also with Stout "(the editor of Mind)" about Berlin, "It would never do, for me at any rate, to go round the world: life is much too short." "It would be delightful to write every day." Wants views from Alys for his Society paper on admission of women ["Lövberg or Hedda"]. Encloses "a few hasty jottings". Much on his intentions in the paper. "All that can result from the paper will be the recording of our opinions in the minute-book...." "Return abstract for writing of paper on Sunday".

Ms. is on abstract for "Lovborg or Hedda". Published as an appendix, vol. 1 of Collected Papers.

"I wrote a first draft of it [the paper] this morning after reading thy suggestions, which thee will see I have woven into my argument in various places." Encloses Dickinson's poem on Society (not present). Encloses rough draft (not present), but he will have to re-write it as end contradicts beginning and yet he wishes to keep both. Germany. Sanger read on "Which Wagner?" "McTaggart ran his Absolute". The Absolute always goes against the Chronicle. Talked music with Young (late of Balliol).

Explanation of terms in paper peculiar to Society [valuable]. Has two papers to do for Ward this week and then an essay for Stout. Carrying on an ethical controversy as to ethical axioms: "I have revolted from pure hedonism which has annoyed Sidgwick."

"I quite admit discussion on sexual subjects is bad for most young people". Thinking of putting paper into final form as dialogue between A and B. Graham Wallas. Why doesn't Alys write a history of the Temperance Movement? Women tied to sex: "No one is to blame except thy friend the Deity". At Sidgwick's dinner, sat next to Miss Johnson who beat him in Tripos; "She did seem stupid". Mrs. Verrall. Colossal to hear the Wards in their brilliance argue: "each as sharp as nails". Has an exam of no importance on [March] 12 [the Moral Sciences exam on Metaphysics!]. Germany trip.

Reading controversies on the self.

Last night's meeting: Society much impressed by the paper, which he was too lazy to re-write but he added two pages at different places in middle, "which I enclose". [They're in the ms.] Talked until 3.30 a.m. Good on the paper's reception. Her article in Nineteenth Century. Read Hedda Gabler with Crompton. Germany. His psychological interest in others (especially women); disclosing one's self. She's in (or will be in) Paris?

"I never work at night". "I have almost made up my mind the best thing for me will be to go into an office and work at economics in my spare time." "I am glad thee liked my note on sentimentality": [This is the ms. of "Lövberg", p. 7a]. How his people work on him. Sympathizing with others.

"Thursday 8.20 a.m." Can't even read a novel till they meet.

Can't work. Cycled to Ely. Drew out a Newnhamite. Something a dead secret. Mrs. and Miss Morris: Frank "hypothetically engaged" to Miss Morris for three years. Told him of Alys but in half a minute he was off on his electrical shop again. Germany if she wants it.

Holograph copy in BR's hand which he sent to Alys.

(On back of sheet of Math., 56a). Sorry she's unnecessarily unhappy over him. Visiting her Tuesday but has an exam paper 9-12 [Moral Sciences exam on Ethics].

"12.15 a.m" Their wonderful time together. Now properly engaged. His people insist he stays at a hotel in Paris (not with Logan and friends). "Later on my Grandmother began: I suppose matters between you and Miss Smith are where they were. I: Well, of course things drift more or less. She: Oh there was no question of drifting: I have her mother's promise in writing, and hers in words, that it was to be nothing but simple friendship. I suppose I ought to have got hers in writing too but I never thought of it. She is as much bound in honour as any human being can be not to let anything but simple friendship arise. Poor old woman! As though such things could be ruled by all the promises in the world! And I don't know, but I imagine she exaggerated the extent of the promises." "Revolting Daughters". He finds all his passions intensified. "I remember vividly a discussion in the train with Costelloe, in which I said I meant to do Moral Science in my fourth year (it was before I was a freshman), and he said that would be too late for philosophy, as my mind would have been spoilt by the 'abstract quantum' (most untrue by the way: nothing is so useful in philosophy as a mathematical training), so I asked him what that meant, and generally drew him out on philosophy and said almost nothing myself, so of course he thought me intelligent; I realized this method even at the time." Encloses copy of letter to Grandma. To Paris tomorrow.

"Aix les Bains 6.30 a.m." Travel plans. Will see her in Paris on 29th. "I have just had some café au lait which I hope will make my ideas more lucid." Her article mentioned by Aunt Maude Stanley, said he agreed with most of it. This is his first trip to Rome. Two years ago travelling was his strongest passion.

Delighted with Rome. His uncle the monsignor acts as his cicerone. Ruins. Miss Dawson. Stiff inartistic aristocrats with him: their icy reserve—couldn't have married one: "host of smart relations here". Made friends with German family: the youth "at first took me for an Italian, I suppose because of my lively excitable manner".

Domesticity vs. problems. Wouldn't study pictures for their own sakes. Miss Dawson considers him a barbarian.

*"9.45 a.m." Alys to be interviewed by his people. "I am glad I have kept thee thoroughly informed of my people's ways and thoughts, otherwise thee might be taken in by this air of holiness and by their perpetual plausibility and power of making certain scores in argument." Has grown to dislike the brutal society of men and like society of almost all women—especially Americans. Alys overworking. "I have overworked myself to a sufficient extent to be for two months unable to follow the simplest train of reasoning and fearing all the while my intellect might be permanently destroyed...." Scarcely contemplated marriage without children. Mercy he hasn't got to go to Germany.

*"Mardi" = Tuesday

Letter is not signed.

Still seeing hosts of aristocrats. His very charming, according to his aunt. Perpetual lies he has to tell (about engagement) aren't good for him in long run: "I am an uncommonly clever liar, from long practice." Hugely enjoying Rome. All women who work, overwork. Must celebrate the birthday of the Temperance demonstration they were involved in.

Sorry her interview wasn't more successful. Encloses Granny's letter [not there]. Aristocrats. Made great friends with old American lady, Mrs. Webb [Welb?] Granny's à priori style: "It is useless to say 'well, but it is so', when she has proved à priori that it can't be." Marble faun. Dined in three languages; the monsignor next to him couldn't believe he was a teatotaller. His aunt's way of seeing things. Hasty generalizations on Italians. German medical acquaintance knows Sigwart intimately, BR's favourite among modern German philosophers; trying to impress him—also discussing Weissman. Three more days till Paris meeting.

[Teetotaller]

Had "scene" with Granny; told her she'd been "unkind" to Alys—this word stung her like an adder. "The idea of blame from a younger person is so foreign to her mind that my words seemed like a combination of sacrilege and cruelty." [Excellent account.]

In Paris he had all his meals with Alys and stayed at Logan's and travelled home with Alys (all of which greatly shocked his people). Lachrimose method Granny's last resource. Socialistic future of marriage. A Shelley selection given to his Aunt [Agatha] by the man who loved her. "The whole story of her life is in her marks" [in the book]. [Lachrymose]

"9.15 a.m." BR went out to meet her letter and read it before 8 o'clock prayers. Must spend the Sunday together before his Tripos. Not going to live with Aunt Agatha when married. "Dora[?] (with whom I always discuss everything, as she knows my people as well as I do ... )". Still fond of grandmother. Frank and his wife's visit. Spring.

Religion. [Greek Exercises]: He was a shocking materialist. Alys has written down the dry facts [of Paris?] in his journal. Encloses [there] reply from Uncle Rollo.

Grandmother wrote Morley, whom he's to see soon.

Engagement.

Told grandmother he was going to ask Alys to be engaged to him. (Granny had just written to mad William.) Encloses [present] memo from Rollo on BR being heir of the ages, etc., and mental health of progeny. Grandmother wants them to submit their feelings to a severer test.

"9.00 p.m." [BR refers to his previous letter (not there) on his good showing on exams and which included criticism of Alys. This missing letter appears to have drawn Alys's replies of 23 and 24 April, to which this seems to be his reply.] He's a worm for writing her such a smug, critical letter. Doing lots of work: exceptionally fit.

Grandmother also read him her reply to Alys's article. 25.4.94 still working hard.

"The enclosed was not meant for thee but I found it the only way of expressing and releaving feelings of conflict wh. grew too strong for me. I will write tomorrow."

[Unsigned] [relieving]

The enclosed is "You behaved like a cad" written out 11 times.

"My Darling I don't know if this will reach you, but I must write an answer to your letter about Hannah, just received." "When I am with you, I feel you despising me; it sometimes makes me long to go and live in complete solitude in Cornwall."

[Letter is not signed.]

"I also am most anxious, if in any way possible, to remain friends, both for the children's sake, and because quarrels are sordid and horrible."

[Letter is marked "Not sent".]

"Dear Dora, I am sorry to hear that the Carn Voel let has fallen through."

Re the children's schooling and Beacon Hill School.

"Dear Dora My impression of Bedales was that there are things about it which neither you nor I would like."

"My Dear Dora I am glad to hear John and Kate have gained; it was to be expected, as they had much less exercise than usual."

"I must ask you to cease abusing Peter and me in your letters."

"My Darling I do not want to shut you into a prison—quite the reverse. It is absolutely imperative that you should be freed from this feeling, since otherwise you will come to hate me, and our happiness will be at an end. I propose the following: at the end of the first year, when the school [Beacon Hill School] is a going concern, some one else (preferably Lucy Silcox) shall take your place, and you shall be free to earn money as you like."

This letter may not have been sent, since its provenance is a legal file kept by BR. Its envelope is addressed simply "D.W.R."

"I made up my mind to close the school [Beacon Hill School] in June of next year." "The school does not do the things I hoped of it." The worst of Dora " ... tyranny, rudeness, boasting, and love of flattery."

[Letter is marked "not sent".]

Draft of telegram.

"I did not tell Frank [Russell] to approach a solicitor; I merely said I would not act as his intermediary with you, and if he needed an intermediary he must get some one else." The letter quotes the text of a letter BR has sent to someone that Dora apparently knows. See record 98853 for the entry based on the quoted text.

The letter's provenance is a legal file. The reason for the letter being in this file is uncertain. It is folded and soiled, and thus was probably sent.

"I spent Saturday to Monday at Dartington [Hall School], and agree with you that it is a good place."

"Sat. morning" Fry; don't laugh at sensitive people. BR in remarkably vigorous health. Self-abasement. Dr. Anderson.

"11.50 p.m." What their love does for him. Wild Duck tickets. Work he's done in last fortnight is far more than he supposed his flabby brain capable of. Stout looked over an essay today; Ward one on Kant tomorrow. Keen to do well on exam. Discussed philosophy with Haldane, M.P., who is a Hegelian. Got his usual six hours' work done.

Saw lots of people at Cambridge. "Beyond". Theodore [Llewelyn Davies] going into the treasury; second on Civil Service exam was Collins whom Russell dislikes. Hjalmar's methods of work exactly like his. Tripos soon. Encloses letters from Alys's aunt, Anne Elliot, and extract from her mother. [Not present.]

Ward's final lecture coming up ("injudicious" not to attend). Carpenter's Woman: ordered 12 copies. Devoutly admires Carpenter, so envies Dickinson the inscription in his copy. Music. Stout expects him to get a first.

Draft letter to Aunt Maude, explaining relationship to Miss Pearsall Smith (seen together at Wild Duck). Draft sent to Alys.

"9.15 p.m." Wednesday before Monday's Tripos exam. Going to sea with Moore tomorrow: "We mean to walk 15 miles a day till Sat...." Moore has Classical Tripos beginning Monday. Will try to persuade Moore that "unconscious will" is meaningless. No wisdom except in abandoning consistency! "I expect the sea will make my brain very fit." Alys to write every day during Tripos.

His people were disagreeable. Women all overwork; could accomplish much more if more careful. Walked 40 miles in two days with Moore. Met a man with immoral stories whom BR drew out for Moore's instruction. Moore hated the man. Result of exam out on 9th (says Mackenzie, an examiner). Glorious to be near end of Cambridge and Triposes.

Dr. Anderson had heard nothing from Pearsall Smith's doctors.

"My Dear Aunt Isabel, Addie, Bessie I have to tell you that I am engaged to be married to a Miss Pearsall Smith...."

Draft of letter also to Lady Elizabeth Melvill and Hon. Isabel Warburton sent to Alys; BR then would have sent individual letters to each one once Alys approved the text. See records 20543, 20544.

"My Dear Aunt Isabel, Addie, Bessie I have to tell you that I am engaged to be married to a Miss Pearsall Smith...."

Draft of letter also to Hon. Adelaide Drummond and Hon. Isabel Warburton sent to Alys; BR then would have sent individual letters to each one once Alys approved the text.

"My Dear Aunt Isabel, Addie, Bessie I have to tell you that I am engaged to be married to a Miss Pearsall Smith...."

Draft of letter also to Hon. Adelaide Drummond and Lady Elizabeth Melvill sent to Alys; BR then would have sent individual letters to each one once Alys approved the text.

"12.30 p.m." "Nobody up here reads the papers, so that still only the Society knows about us." Light [the engagement news] is thrown on his paper last term. Glad "they had chosen Mr. Bennet for me to write on, as Sidgwick and two other angels turned up, and the other subjects were too intimate to read about before an old man like Sidgwick." Moore. "People seemed on the whole to agree with what I said, and fortunately they laughed at all the things I had said were laughable (except the mole of the same species, which I left out)." [Apparently BR gave a paper to the Society. June 2 was a Saturday.] If he gets a star, a Fellowship is certain if he works; but he probably won't get a star. Lots of letters enclosed. [Not present.]

"9.15 p.m." Alys getting too proper. George Russell's congratulations. "Old Bertram"(?). Returns Dr. Anderson's letter. BR will get up education: judicious mixture of practical and [theoretical] best for him (with practical subordinated). Evidently BR was complimented on his "good method of work". Sanger broke his reserve for the first time (one friend is an opium-eater). Sanger feared BR would take up wildly some form of philanthropy (such as Temperance), and favour religion. Moore's sisters: no prudery or false shame.

"11.30 p.m." Dickinson. Begun thinking he'd better read for a Fellowship. Marshall gave him an enormous list of books to read: at least three months to read them at four hours a day. To report progress to Marshall in October, when specialist books to be recommended if interested. "I shall, I think, take his advice in toto until I have a right to views of my own." Anne Elliot and her governess Miss Young: talked Ibsen. Finished Bebel's Woman: it suffers (at end) from want of a scientific training in exact reasoning.

"10.45 p.m." Too bad couldn't celebrate anniversary of Temperance demonstration. Encloses congratulatory letters, which are to be sent to P.L. [Pembroke Lodge]. Zangwill. Discussed German and Russian literature with Mrs Ward. Ward told him his essay paper best ever seen. Augurs well for Fellowship in two or three years from September. Seemed to fix on subject of "The Epistemological Bearings of Metageometry". "I then went on, at Ward's recommendation, to a somewhat younger member of the Society, named Whitehead, another Trinity don, who has worked at this subject from the mathematical side, and he instructed me in the bibliography of the subject. I may write on the meaning and validity of the differential calculus instead, but I think that would be harder and less exciting. In either case I shall be able to utilize both my Triposes, and so, I hope, make my dissertation unintelligible to all my examiners, in which case I shall be safe. Ward seemed to think I should be able to do a certain amount of economics as well, and that it wouldn't matter being away, indeed that Germany would be quite a good plan. I shall have to go in first Sep. year, which may interfere with our wedding tour I fear. This is sad, but I suppose unavoidable." Maggie Elliot.

"Monday" "3.30 p.m." Boring relations and aristocrats. Anxious to get settled at Friday's Hill, and ordering books and paper.

"10.30 p.m." Doctors. (Dr. Tuke); severe trial. Alys still making speeches.

"Wed. 5 p.m" Written on printed letterhead: 44, Grosvenor Road, Westminster Embankment. S.W., the Pearsall Smiths' London home.

[Dated June 20 by B. Halpern.] Let Dr. Anderson see Dr. Tuke. His people think Alys's father crazy.

Going to Wales. Heredity fear seems averted.

"Dolbadarn Hotel" With Marsh, having walked most of the way from Caernarvon. Tomorrow will ascend Snowdon and sleep at Beddgelert.

"Prince Llewelyn Hotel" Trying to read One of Our Conquerors.

[Signed visitor's book at Snowdon?]

Dr. Anderson worries Alys. BR may write curtly to him. Try to ignore his people. Yesterday walked 21 or 22 miles, visiting Tremadoc and Pwllhelli.

"7 p.m." Ethics of allowing Granny to continue worrying her; real victory on their side.

Marked "Copy" in BR's hand.

[Her formal name is Lady Agatha Russell.]

"Bangor tonight Carnarvon tomorrow night".

"The Castle Hotel" Dr. Tuke. Alys has written to Dr. Anderson. Possibility of going to Boston with Alys and Lady Henry Somerset. Very glad she's at last read Mill's Autobiography: "It is at the bottom of a great deal in me." Religion. His complexion (sunburnt). Reading Meredith. Do read marvellous article by K. Pearson on socialism and natural selection in Fortnightly.

"Royal Ship Hotel" On Aunt Agatha's letter [of 7.7.94]. Argues for marriage in autumn rather than a year later. Charming trip in a sailing ship from Menai to Beaumaris and back. Eisteddfod. Sailor of ship anti-Prince of Wales but an old Tory; "an instance of the concrete ungeneralizing nature of the British mind."

"Je n'ai point de lettre ci matin."

Postcard in French about movements and aunt's letter.

"Royal Ship Hotel" "11.30 a.m." The Welsh a disagreeable race; had to make signs for "knife". Had Tristram Shandy with autograph in two volumes. His dream a year ago. Marsh is always charming, but sleeping together prevents BR from kissing her picture.

"Corbett and Raven Hotel" Enjoying Towyn hughly.

"Corbett and Raven Hotel" Dr. Tuke doesn't condemn their plan. Finished One of Our Conquerors. Glad she's attended to the ring. Mathematics and social questions in Pearson's article.

"Corbett and Raven Hotel", marked "copy" in BR's hand.
"Private". BR and Alys are resolved on preventive checks [birth control]. They consulted also Dr. Philpot and Dr. Tuke. BR's father's fits.

"Corbett and Raven Hotel" Will meet at last on Monday.

"In the train between Shrewsbury and Stafford" Told Marsh of Granny's worries; Marsh wept.

Forwarded to Alys with note "Rec. Sat. night on arriving at P.L., July 14."

Terribly affected by his grandmother's illness; Dr. Gardiner. BR arrived [from Friday's Hill?] that morning. Granny besought BR to consent to an absence. She really does care only about his moral welfare, which is imperilled by his neglect of duty to her. Dr. Gardiner said she needs peace of mind, as she may have cancer. Urged BR to travel for four or six months. Too much affected by pity for grandmother to think calmly. If there is to be a separation, let it be this morning's: a "sudden and wonderful conquest of purity and love".

[Letter is not signed.]

"9.15 a.m." This morning feels he can't bear a separation for four months, but better that than his grandmother on his conscience rest of his life.

"In the train to Holyhead." "5 p.m." Depressed.

[Apparently Stanleys are at Holyhead.] Left his luggage behind. Algernon. Miss Davies; cooperation. Laughed at this from point of view of socialism. Grandmother Stanley. Will read Princess Casamassima [by Henry James]; Millbank neighbourhood interests him. "Aug. 19, 8.50 am" [Penrhos] insists Granny's ghost won't haunt him if Alys honestly thinks separation unnecessary. Encloses sort of letter he'd write Granny [not present].

"7.30 p.m." Granny had seen Alys's letter. Doctors. [Stanleys] dogmatize freely on everything. Decision Alys's. [Letter is not signed.]

[Date not clearly written by BR; 19th appears to be 15th.]

"11.30 a.m." Told Aunt Maude some things.

"No one who knows anything of P.L. wonders at anything but my having stood it so long." During separation he wouldn't mind being in Dresden with Mariechen. Must marry within a week of separation's being over. "I should not mind a separation so much if it were not an instance of my Grandmother's power so that it enhances that superstitious feeling of the power of my family and class which I am always liable to when things go wrong." Send cheque-book which is in his writing-desk.

Encloses letter to grandmother, but won't send till tomorrow. [Not present.] Relief to say things long suppressed; letter is a "masterpiece".

Sends letter to grandmother, with second (affecting) postscript: they'd rather have him insane than wicked.

His headache, loss of appetite, and now "prey to morbid fancies such as those in the enclosed"; return. [Not present.] Fears for career if morbidity continues. "The enclosed paper was written just after a fortnight's separation."

[Very likely the journal entry dated 20-21 July 1894, which is in the Autobiography, v. 1, "Engagement" chapter, which BR says he showed no one until a much later date; a ms. copy is in the Archives.]

Grandmother's health.
 

Done all he could to avert a separation.

Grandmother Stanley told BR she'd like to have another like him! Talking of Tom Mann and John Burns, etc. Excellent humorous account of conversations with Grandmother Stanley [about her brain going to science].

"I'm a Socialist." Likes whist. Stanleys worship success. P.L. always expecting BR to get cancer from smoking. Goes to Burdetts next.

Won't show grandmother BR's agitating letters.
 

Going to Pembroke Lodge Monday night. Send him the letter to grandmother (very glad he kept a copy, otherwise lost for ever in his aunt's clutches). Won't promise not to fall in love with Mariechen. Will go straight to Dresden after Burdetts. Reading James's Psychology, easy and pleasant; finding all the points he was maintaining against Logan. Send these books: all on shelf of his writing desk, except Nicholson, and Recent Economic Changes; Lotze's Metaphysik; Wundt, System; also "the few loose sheets of manuscript headed: Geometrical Axioms and those headed Absolute Position (one page) and Congruence (three pages) (all these were lying on my desk when I left Friday's Hill)." Also: Headlong Hall, Shelley; a few Henry James's and casual novels. Also Kant's Kritik. "The power of aristocracy is terrible socially, as I have reason to know."

Also send his tin box with her letters; a ream or two of his scribbling paper. Everything bores him, except smoke. Aunt Maude on their side. "Blast it, I wish the three months were over."

Glad to have letter to grandmother back. Argued for socialism at dinner. Bryden his great-great-grandfather. Family wit.

Dr. Gardiner's letter enclosed [not present]. Took a before- breakfast bathe in the sea: superstitions and fears seem very far removed. Marry in November; then away from this cursed country of cousins and aunts. Send also his list of books read; can leave out Kant, Lotze and Wundt if not room in bag. Gardiner's letter: "I am glad he is in favour of continence—otherwise his letter is pointless."

"Betw. Stafford and Rugby" "2.45 p.m." Stanley family wishes him well. Critical of pamphlet Alys sent him. The Mrs. Webb in Rome. Address Friday's letter to Poste Restante, Heidelberg.

"10 p.m." Agatha showed letter to grandmother to Rollo, who said it was as weak a letter as he had ever heard of. Dr. Gardiner wants his letter back to copy. His people much propitiated by the separation. The Drs. don't call it cancer, only "analogous" to cancer. Encloses his letter to his grandmother and an old one to his aunt [not present]. Could send to Edith Thomas. Glad he's not dependent on his people; might have driven him mad like his father and uncle, and now his aunt.