"Thursday" "I shall like meeting the P.M.*—I had no chance even to observe him from a distance at the Sheffields!"

*H.H. Asquith.

"Friday night My Darling Your dear letter was waiting for me when I got home—it will be heavenly if you will come tomorrow morning—the earlier the better, as I shall go to Camb. as soon as you leave me—but better not before 9.45 as my charwoman wd. still be here."

"Sat. night My Darling—This can't go till tomorrow night, but I want to write now."

"Wed. mg." "Last night when I got back from the Whiteheads."

"Thursday night" "I am doing a great deal of work, partly sensation and imagination; partly the proofs of Keynes's book on probability, which I am reading with Broad and then discussing with Keynes."

"Tuesday night My Darling Darling I cannot tell you what a wonderful day it was to me today."

"Wed. evg." Conrad and Forstice: —leave 1st and 3rd parts as they are, but expand middle part into long book; said "Not to be sure whether it was worth my while to give so much time to it."

"Friday evg." "I wonder what you are thinking about politics. It all seems very anxious and uncertain."

Going to fill her blank book with favourite poems. [This book was been acquired for the Russell Archives as Recent Acq. 1529a.]

"Sat. mg. My Darling Love—I loved our little moment yesterday mg—it was all the more heavenly for being unexpected."

Helen Dudley.

"Sat. mg." Cobden-Sanderson has sent his Shelley. "His printing seems to me very good indeed—besides, I love him."

"Monday" "My Darling This is only one line to say no letter reached me at Piccot's End, but their posts are so slow that I don't feel sure you didn't write."

"Wed. mg." "The war and risk of war is quite awful—I try not to realize it—the horror of it is too great. As regards home politics I suppose it may make things easier."

"Thursday night" War.

"Friday evg. My Darling Love Your dear letter this mg. was a very great joy."

Letter no. 1,062 is not on microfilm reel. Listed as missing by U. of Texas.

"Sat. night My Darling I hardly know if this will reach you at Oxford but I write on the chance."

"Sat. mg. My Darling—Thank you for yesterday's letter—it is depressing that all those normally sensible people are in favour of war."

"Sunday aftn. My Darling I was glad of your telegram."

"Wed. evg." "... have had a letter from Mrs. Whitehead in favour of war."

"Thursday night My Dearest—Whatever I may have said or written by way of advice to P. for Burnley was only what I thought at the moment—I find from hour to hour my feelings of what is possible change, and I might easily think the opposite of what I had said by the time Sat. came, and if Burnley seemed not in a mood to hear reason."

"Friday My Dearest—I was very glad of your 2 letters this morning."

"Monday night My Darling I wish I could have seen you one moment tonight."

"Thursday night" "When I got here I found a very war-like letter from Mrs. Whitehead, saying North wants to enlist and she thinks he is right. I can't tell you how much I mind—I feel as if my relations with the whole family could never again be quite the same. Next to you they are the most important people in my life."

More about division of love against love.

"Sunday My Darling I was very glad of your letter this morning."

"Friday" "I wrote a long letter to Mrs. Whitehead trying to explain what I feel. I don't know how they will take it, but on my side it makes a separation which I fear can never be healed."

"Friday night" "I am puzzled about writing. It seems to me very little use publishing now. What is wanted is a book to be published after the war—it would have to be psychological, to make people conscious of the tricks instinct plays with reason at such times."

"Friday My Darling Your 2 letters this morning were a great happiness."

More about Whiteheads.

"My Darling It is a downright falsehood that I asked her to go all lengths."

"Monday My Darling—I am very very sorry—I had lost touch with love through reading what the Germans have done—that was why things went wrong."

"My Dearest Dearest I couldn't write simply before because I felt you would take it cynically, and merely think I had a gift of facile expression."

"Thursday My Darling—This morning is sooner than this afternoon, so I wd. rather you came this mg. if you can stay as long."

"Tuesday night My Darling—I have read what George gives of Bright's letter; it is most wonderful."

"Wed. night My Darling—I cannot tell you all that your love is to me in these days—it is much more to me than ever before—today I felt an absolute fullness of union such as I had hardly thought possible in this world—it is quite beyond words and as the pain of the outward horror increases, I feel your love increasing too, sustaining courage and keeping faith alive."

"Friday night My Dearest I am profoundly sorry that I have not been straight either with you or with Helen, and still more so that I could fail so unconsciously."

"Sat. aft." "Last night I sent Massingham a letter on Wells."*

*Perhaps "Will this War End War?", Labour Leader, 10 Sept. 1914, 2. See Auto. 2: 45.

"Sunday Dearest Ottoline Your letter came this morning."

"Tuesday night My Darling Darling—It was wonderfully happy today—tho' it was painful when Helen [Dudley] rang at the door—it seemed so intolerably brutal—but it could not spoil the great great joy of feeling at one with you again."

"My Ottoline, It is a new life that begins today—in all our time together there has never been anything so wonderful as the time in the library just now."

"Friday night" "Waterlow, who wants me to write something for the International Journal of Ethics. I thought perhaps I would write on the ethics of war, abstractly, largely to clear my own mind, which is muddled."

"Wednesday My Ottoline, my Darling, Your letter gives me the most unspeakable happiness—I have read it over and over again—I went to Hampstead Heath and read it again in places where we were happy in early days, and I felt how much deeper and fuller and more wonderful our union has become."

"Sat. night My Darling Love—It was extraordinarily happy today—and on the hill it was terribly moving."

"Tuesday night" "I copied out for Forstice part of a letter I wrote you about the 23rd of March 1912—I enclose it [record 18245—every word of it is true now, except about fierceness—that is gone—I am altogether less fierce than I was then."

[Re a revision to Forstice. Only part of this enclosure is from BR's earlier letter, namely one dated 1912/03/24, record 17499. BR had had Forstice typed in July 1912, so presumably the insertion was made into the typescript, since the passage is not in the  MS. See Papers 12: 535. The typescript and any copies seem not to be extant.]

This note (165.jpg) by Ottoline Morrell accompanied it the extract enclosed with the current letter: "Copy of part of a Letter written to me on March 24? 1912. by. Bertie Russell. I was at Lausanne."

Extract from letter said to have been written "about" 23 March 1912. The extract was enclosed with document .001090, record 18244. However, part of the extract comes from the letter dated 24 March 1912, record 17499. It was for Forstice, though it cannot be ascertained where BR intended it to be inserted. By 1913 he had had Forstice typed, and only the manuscript is known to be extant today [2015].

This record is only a placeholder now. The extract was moved to document .001090, record 18244 so that it wouldn't be missed in reading no. 1090 (K. Blackwell, 11.6.2017).

"Later. I am terribly sorry my Dearest that I give you such pain." [Date is uncertain; latter half of 1915. Letter is only a fragment. The enclosure is the last paragraph of Principles of Social Reconstruction.]

Whether this is a separate letter or part of an earlier one has yet to be decided.

"Sat. aft. My Darling Love I am sorry that H.D.* goes on telling things that bother you—do try to stop her—there is no use in her telling them, and you really know all about it now."

*[Helen Dudley]

"Sunday night" "I heard from Whitehead yesterday"—North in big battle—see Times today.

"Thursday mg. My Dearest—I see Lord Shuttleworth in the D.N. [Daily News] this mornng—very patriotic."

"Monday night. My Darling Darling—It was a happy and wonderful time again today—quite as wonderful as any time we have had."

"My Darling This is just a line to say I find I have to be at University Coll. at 7 on Friday, so if you happened to be free I could see you at tea time."

"Wed. mg My Darling I mustn't write more than a line as I am overwhelmed with work."

"Friday night My Darling—Santayana has been dining with me and it is near post-time so I must write quickly."

"Sat. My Darling Thanks for your note this morning."

"Thursday night My Darling Love—I was sorry not to see you tonight but I didn't want to see H.D. [Helen Dudley]"

"Wed evg. My Darling Love Until now I have not had a moment, and I don't know if this will arrive by 1st post."

"Thursday mg. My Darling Darling I am so dreadfully sorry you are worried."

"Wed. night" "Charles [Trevy] wants to print the article I wrote for the Contemporary, [War, the Offspring of Fear] and he also wants an article on the Balance of Power—it ought to be done by a historian. He asked me, but I am not sure I can."

"Friday evg." With the Whiteheads—no fundamental talk yet.

"Thursday night" "It is perfectly awful being here."

(Lockeridge).

"My Darling—I should be very glad of a walk tomorrow afternoon."

"Saturday" Got away from Whiteheads "without disaster".

"When the war is over the gulf can be more or less breached, but never completely."

"Monday mg. My Darling Love—Your dear letter of Saturday arrived just before I started this mg, and now Sunday's was waiting here."

"Thursday evg." Angell "does not feel capable of writing the book against the war that I want to have written. I wonder whether I could do it. I feel too ignorant of the economic and business aspects, but perhaps I could get them up. What do you think?"

"Friday mg. My Darling—I was very glad of your dear letter this mg, tho' I am sad that you are not coming back till Tuesday."

"Monday evg. My Darling It was sad to find you so tired and headachy, but Oxford always has that effect, hasn't it?"

"Tuesday aft. My Darling It was a great joy to get your dear letter this morning."

"Monday night My Darling This is only a line to say my meeting with H.D.* passed off without misadventure."

*Helen Dudley.

"Wed. mg. My Darling Unless you send word to the contrary I will come to Bedford Square at 5."

"Thursday My Darling Please don't worry yourself now-a-days, when you are tired, thinking I shall be hurt— there is not a thought of that kind buried anywhere—I hope the air at Southwold will do you good."

"Sat. mg. My Darling—Thank you very much for the sayings of Lao-tzu, which I am delighted to have—and I am glad to see you wrote in it—I like books from you ever so much better when you write in them."

"Sunday evg" Busy with Perkins's all day—father, mother and son—son going to TC.

"My Darling Charles Trevy wants to see me at his house at 4."

"Friday night My Darling It is sad to say goodbye to you even for four days—I become very dependent on you in all this misery and isolation.

The Carnegie Report on the Balkan Wars is a really great document, written as history ought to be written. If the young were taught by such books, there would be no wars between civilized countries. I think I can make a magazine article* out of it, of a sort that could be printed by the Contemporary. It is very well written, restrained and charitable, full of love.

I am sorry you have such bad headaches now-a-days Dearest. I hope Newington will be restful. My deepest love is with you always my Darling. Your B."

*"A True History of Europe's Last War", Labour Leader, 12: 11 Mar. 1915.

Lady Agatha Russell's letter is mentioned in document .001117.

"Sunday evg." "Whitehead turned up to lunch unexpectedly yesterday—he was very nice, disagreeing, but not unreasonable, and very patient of my not having gone to see them."

"Ship Hotel" "Sunday mg My Darling I am very sorry I stupidly sent yesterday's letter to Newington—it was idiotic."

"Ship Hotel," "Monday mg My Darling I was very glad of your letter this morning and interested about Whitehouse."

"Sat." On the effect ("my Impulse was shattered") of Wittgenstein on his philosophizing. [Quoted in BR's Auto. 2: 57.]

"Thursday night My Darling Love I am so very sorry it was 11.15 when I found your little note, so I did not come."

"Monday night. My Darling It was comforting to find your note when I got back—it was good of you to read my stuff and I am glad you liked it."

"Friday evg. My Darling I was glad to hear from you tonight—we are very much in the trough just now, and it is hard to drag through the days, but happier times will come; it is even possible they may come sooner than seems likely just now."

[No number on letter.]

"Sat. aftn. My Darling This is just a line to reach you tonight."

"Sunday night" "Last night I went as a guest to a meeting of an Oxford and Cambridge Society—Goldie, Keynes, Wallas, Marvin, J.A. Smith, Zimmern, McDougall etc.—about twenty people altogether—they discussed the question of terms of peace. Almost all were just as happy as if there were no war, and enjoyed themselves re-making the map of Europe. I had not realized such people were so totally heartless. Goldie spoke very well and movingly; J.A. Hobson was good; Keynes sensible but cold; the rest dreadful."

"Today I have been writing an outline on "Why Nations Love War" for N. Angell's War and Peace."*

*"Why Nations Love War", War and Peace, 21 Nov. 1914, 20-1. [Goldie = G. Lowes Dickinson.]

"Tuesday aftn. My Darling Your telegram came just as I got here, and I replied at once by telegram."

"Wed. aftn. You said you were going away but I have forgotten where to."

"Thursday mg. My Darling Yes, the treatment of Germans here is utterly abominable—so is the letter of the learned men. The whole tone of the Nation* is utterly horrible. On the other hand the Literary Supplement today is very good. I have got a copy of an American newspaper, obviously pro-English, but having an article on atrocities, saying the English are the only nation not accused of them and the Russians are the nations against whom there is the strongest evidence. It then briefly mentions a few horrors in East Prussia. How little we are allowed to know of all that! Thanks for telling me about Karin's wedding. Kar Cox is coming to lunch with me on Sunday. Last night I had a Louvain theologian to dinner, a dull man, stupid, and ignorant outside his subject. The four Belgians I have seen so far have been far less deeply affected by the war than many English people.—Piccoli has just been here, bringing me a splendid article by Romain Rolland, Tolstoyan, saying all that should be said."

*Perhaps the Nation.

"Friday mg. My Darling—Your letter of last night is just come."

"Friday mg. My Darling—I was very glad to get your letter just now." [Probably late Sept.]

"Sunday night [date: possibly 4 Oct.] My Darling Love—I hope I didn't hurt you by not wanting to come this afternoon.

Partly I wanted to start writing about the Carnegie Report, and partly I felt very doubtful about America, and had the painful feeling of a dream shattered, which I was not anxious to discuss with P. till I had my feelings more in order. By tomorrow I shall be placid.

I have written eight pages on the Carnegie Report, and hope to finish tonight. I had an unexpected visit from H.D.*, very unhappy; I wouldn't let her in, and though she asked me for a glass of water I kept her waiting on the stairs while I fetched it. I made her go home and walked as far as the door of her lodgings with her. She says she is terribly lonely. She swore she would not come to my flat again, and said she didn't want to see me again for some weeks. It was painful seeing her."

*Helen Dudley.

"Sunday night My Darling No letter from you today—but I will be at my flat by 11 tomorrow mg. and shall hope for you soon after I arrive unless I find a note to the contrary."

"Tuesday night My Darling Love—I return Cannan's book, which I think worthless."

"Thursday night My Darling—It seemed very odd and irrelevant to be lecturing today—five people turned up, and I felt inclined to ask them what had induced them to come."