BRACERS Record Detail for 18296
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"Sunday night [date: possibly 4 Oct.] My Darling Love—I hope I didn't hurt you by not wanting to come this afternoon.
Partly I wanted to start writing about the Carnegie Report, and partly I felt very doubtful about America, and had the painful feeling of a dream shattered, which I was not anxious to discuss with P. till I had my feelings more in order. By tomorrow I shall be placid.
I have written eight pages on the Carnegie Report, and hope to finish tonight. I had an unexpected visit from H.D.*, very unhappy; I wouldn't let her in, and though she asked me for a glass of water I kept her waiting on the stairs while I fetched it. I made her go home and walked as far as the door of her lodgings with her. She says she is terribly lonely. She swore she would not come to my flat again, and said she didn't want to see me again for some weeks. It was painful seeing her."
*Helen Dudley.