BR TO CONSTANCE MALLESON, [31 JULY 1919]
BRACERS 19513. ALS. McMaster
Edited by S. Turcon. Reviewed by K. Blackwell

<West Lulworth>
<letterhead>
70, Overstrand Mansions,
Prince of Wales Road,
Battersea, S.W.1^, 2
Thursday.3

Beloved

2 letters this morning and your French telegram4 yesterday evening! You are good to me. I am sorry you had such a headache. I won’t let you pay for your time here, as I’m not nearly as hard up as you are, but I’ll keep your cheque and fill it in when you get the money from Macdonell:5 the sum is £54.10s. So if you will tell me when you get the money, you needn’t take any further trouble. Nothing would induce me to let you pay for your time here.

I wish I could let you know how utterly the world is transformed for me since your love revived. I was so terribly hungry for your love — and now I know it and feel it more than ever before — I have now a strong belief in your love, and it takes the fever out of life — The sense of comradeship in the deep fierce terrible things is very wonderful — without that, they are a grinding agony, but with it they make the richness of love. The whole world, every moment of it, every big and every little thing, is quite quite different to me now from what it was before — The depth of my love for you is greater than it has ever been. You are the sum of my world and without you there is darkness. Goodbye Heart’s Comrade.6

B.

• 1

  [document] Document 200501.

• 2

  [envelope] The Lady Constance Malleson | 6 Mecklenburgh Square | London W.C.1. Pmk: WEST LULWORTH | 31 JY | 19

• 3

  [date] Colette wrote“31 July 1919” on the envelope.

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  2 letters this morning and your French telegram Not extant.

• 5

  Macdonell J.H. MacDonnell, Colette’s lawyer.

• 6

  Heart’s Comrade  For information on this term, see BRACERS 19145, n.12.