BR TO CONSTANCE MALLESON, [30 MAR. 1918]
BRACERS 19302. ALS. McMaster
Edited by S. Turcon. Reviewed by K. Blackwell

<London>
Sat. aftn.1^, 2^, 3

My Beloved

Your telegram came4 — a thousand thanks — I am just waiting for C.A.5 and then we go to Marlow6 after tea, returning Monday — I may be free for dinner — I shall know when I see him — anyhow Monday at about 10 at the Attic.7

I long for you my dear one — The times are gloomy and nothing but you is strong enough to fight against the gloom inside me. I feel less hope for the world than ever before — I mean for the near future — I think by the time you are old things will be better, but hardly in my lifetime. But one can’t tell — there are always possibilities of better things.

Dear one, I keep hearing your voice and feeling your arms round me and your lips on mine — and it keeps me serene deep down — Goodbye my Life —

B.

• 1

  [document] Document 200290.

• 2

  [envelope] The Lady Constance Malleson | Nimmy Not Cottage | Bellingdon | near Chesham Pmk: ?? | 5.15 PM | 30 MAR 18

• 3

  [date] Colette wrote “30 March 1918” on the letter.

• 4

  Your telegram Stamped 20 March 1918 from Cholesbury, Bucks. Colette was at her cottage in nearby Bellingdon. In it she thanks BR for his letters (BRACERS 107349).

• 5

  C.A (Reginald) Clifford Allen (1889–1939). For information on him, see BRACERS 19046, n.7.

• 6

  Marlow T.S. Eliot and his wife rented a cottage at 31 West Street in the village of Marlow, Bucks. on 5 December 1917. BR did have some financial obligation with regard to the rental, and he contributed furniture as well. The lease was terminated on 15 November 1920.

• 7

  the Attic The flat at no. 6 Mecklenburgh Square rented by Colette and her husband, Miles.