BR TO CONSTANCE MALLESON, [6 MAR. 1918]
BRACERS 19297. ALS. McMaster
Edited by S. Turcon. Reviewed by K. Blackwell

<London>
Wed1^, 2^, 3

My Darling Love

It is hateful not seeing you for such a long time4 — I had a meeting this afternoon, and then dictated to Miss Kyle5 till 6 (all the morning too). Work is a nuisance — Don’t fail about the tickets,6 will you, Sweet Love?  I do look forward to it —

I feel I was horrid last night — I seemed to depress you — I didn’t feel horrid — old phrases came out with no present feeling behind them. I do hope you weren’t really ill — I was dreadfully worried —

My love, I love you love you love you — my whole Soul is yours. I can’t beara that you should feel as you say, like a tailor-made with a diamond.7 Don’t you know that your love is the most wonderful and amazing thing that has ever come to me, and that it utterly transforms my life?  Dearest, do feel that we are equals — comrades — that is what love should mean. The other must be uncomfortable, not warm and intimate — but I feel warm and intimate with you. All my love, my dear one — I longb to hold you in my arms. Oh we must notc fail to have Ashford8 —

B.

• 1

  [document] Document 200285.

• 2

  [envelope] The Lady Constance Malleson | 6 Mecklenburgh Square | W.C.1. Pmk: LONDON WC | 1.15 AM | 7 MAR 18

• 3

  [date] Colette wrote “6 March 1918” on the letter.

• 4

  not seeing you for such a long time Colette had been ill with influenza.

• 5

  Miss Kyle Eva Kyle. She typed Roads to Freedom, which BR dictated to her.

• 6

  fail about the tickets It is not known what event they planned on attending.

• 7

  tailor-made with a diamond Her letter which contains this comparison is not extant.

• 8

  Ashford Colette and BR vacationed in a house, The Avenue, near Ashford Carbonel, Shrops. For further information, see BRACERS 19217, n.4.

Textual Notes

• a

  bear Underlined seven times in a continuous stroke.

• b

  long Underlined four times in a continuous stroke.

• c

  not Underlined three times.