BR TO OTTOLINE MORRELL, [10 APR. 1911]
BRACERS 17084. ALS. Morrell papers #25A, Texas
Proofread by K. Blackwell and A.G. Bone

In the train <to London>1
Monday

My Dearest

Since your note came this morning I have been in fifty minds as to whether to come today or next Tuesday. At last it seemed to me next Tuesday would be better. It is very difficult to think it better to wait till then, but the extra day is very important — we should be sorry to have thrown away a day uselessly. Also I would rather come when you are more rested, as I fear you may find me not conducive to rest. I should have felt more certain except for the feeling that there’s many a slip. But that seems only a superstition — I don’t see what is likely to interfere with next Tuesday. Another thing that weighs slightly is that I think Studland is more full of my acquaintances now than it will be next week. But the chief thing is the extra day. And today I should have been rather late, on account of having to go to London.

The Blake arrived this morning — thank you a thousand times — I have brought it with me, and have already looked at most of your marks, which have given me many new delights, as most of them were poems I hardly knew and am glad to know. (I have never known such a shaky train.) Have you a dislike of India paper books? I use them a good deal for poetry, because one can get so much into one’s pocket, and out of doors is the right place to read poetry. But some people can’t stand them.

I wonder whether I decided right about not coming today. I felt from your letter that on the whole you would prefer next week. And I don’t want to tire you more than I can help.

I was a little unjust to Karin the other day — I think her faults are due to environment and her virtues are her own. She is nice fundamentally, and has a good deal of reserve. Like all other young people she is wondering what to do with her life, and she is anxious to be useful. But I don’t know what to advise.

Dearest, I wish I were coming today — as soon as I had telegraphed I began to repent. But next week we shall be glad. And I should like our first real time together to be absolutely perfect.

This must be posted at Woking, so I haven’t much more time. I will write again on my way home this evening, after I have had your letter to Carlyle Square. I must not stay up so late at night writing — I get short of sleep. It will be a comfort being in my own rooms in College where I can write whenever I choose. Goodbye Dearest. This must be posted now.

B.

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