BRACERS Record Detail for 19091
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"Wed. night. My Beloved—It was an unspeakable happiness to be with you again—even though we were both saddened by [Clifford] Allen—I was thankful to be with you—it made it all easier."
BR TO CONSTANCE MALLESON, [13 DEC. 1916]
BRACERS 19091. ALS. McMaster
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My Beloved
It was an unspeakable happiness to be with you again — even though we were both saddened by Allen.3 I was thankful to be with you — it made it all easier. I felt you full of sadness, and I am sorry it is so — but I suppose it can’t be helped. Dear one, do feel that my spirit is with you always — feeling what you feel — longing to be of more comfort to you — hating that you should be unhappy alone — but something very deep in me won’t let me think very much of happiness just now — it is not a principle, but an instinct — something I can’t conquer. I feel I could be different if I had more vitality, but my stock has been diminished by the war, and I can’t get any mental rest while the war lasts.
Dearest Darling, I send you all my love and my deepest tenderness. I long for Sunday in the country with you, my dear dear love — I bless you for all you are and for your wonderful wonderful love.
B.
