BR TO CONSTANCE MALLESON, 30 JAN. 1919
BRACERS 19424. ALS. McMaster
Edited by S. Turcon. Reviewed by K. Blackwell

Garsington.1
30.1.19.

My Beloved

Your telegram2 this morning was a relief — I was half glad that no letter came by the post as I had been dreading what it might contain. Since my work has gone so wonderfully well, I have been full, full of love to you — All that is due to Lynton,3 which was a most heavenly time. I see now that the one thing I felt lacking was the feeling of work accomplished — Forgive me — I am a fool.

My work has gone on from triumph to triumph, like the wonderful time I told you of when I came back from Rome.4 All the things I had puzzled over have suddenly grown clear. Only small difficulties of detail remain. Not only belief, but the whole Analysis of Mind,5 is clear to me in all its main outlines. All my work of the next year or two ought to be agreeable and not intolerably difficult — I can begin writing at once. The joy of such a moment is unspeakable — I long to be with you — all the cramped unhappy critical things that make me beastly drop off when work goes well — I have energy and life again, and need not vampire you, but can give joy instead of only absorbing it. Bless you my Love for having helped me so patiently through the bad time. I love you, my Heart’s Life — Goodbye. Let us meet as soon as possible.

B.

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  [document] Document 200414.

• 2

  Your telegram Not extant.

• 3

  Lynton BR and Colette had spent the Christmas season there with Clifford Allen at the Cottage Hotel.

• 4

  back from Rome By Rome, BR is referring to the dictation of “The Relation of Sense Data to Physics” (1 in Papers 8) and not Our Knowledge of the External World (B&R A12). Colette was mistaken when she replied: “When you say it’s been a time like the one when you came back from meeting Peano, I fully understand its importance” (BRACERS 113170). BR met Peano in Paris in 1908.

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  Analysis of Mind Published in June 1921 (B&R A35).