BR TO CONSTANCE MALLESON, [10? NOV. 1918]
BRACERS 19385. ALS. McMaster
Edited by S. Turcon. Reviewed by K. Blackwell

<London?>
Sunday1^, 2

My Darling

I am sorry I was so depressed yesterday — it is purely subjective and merely means that something or other is gone wrong with me physically. But I must deal with it, and I must avoid oppressing you with my spleen. I went to see Gertler3 today and walked home with a Frenchwoman I found there, who designs dresses for Omega4 — I enjoyed hearing about French things and talking French, and the walk did me good — I have proposed myself to Garsington5 for next week-end — Don’t take my depressions seriously — I know what to do: plenty of exercise, and a good deal of people I don’t know well — I get imprisoned in Self, and want things into which I can’t thrust Self. I hate myself in these moods, and feel not fit to live — but I will soon get all right again. Forgive me. You are quite right not to encourage me to talk about my moods — You are so infinitely good to me that I hate to vampire you —

Goodnight Darling. I won’t be depressed tomorrow —

B.

• 1

  [document] Document 200375.

• 2

  [date] The date is a guess based on “Sunday”.

• 3

  Gertler Mark Gertler (1891–1939), painter.

• 4

  Frenchwoman … Omega The Frenchwoman is unidentified. The Omega Workshops were founded by Roger Fry, Duncan Grant, and Vanessa Bell in July 1913 at 33 Fitzroy Square in Bloomsbury. The workshops allowed artists to create and sell decorative arts, furniture, and even clothing.

• 5

  Garsington Garsington Manor, near Oxford, the county home of Lady Ottoline and Philip Morrell.