BR TO CONSTANCE MALLESON, 19 JUNE 1917
BRACERS 19175. ALS. McMaster
Edited by S. Turcon. Reviewed by K. Blackwell

Tuesday mg   19 June 19171

My Beloved

It was dear of you to write yesterday2 — I loved your letter — I didn’t mind your mood Sunday evening3 — I put it down to the heat.

My dear one, I feel as if we had got beyond the region where moods matter. I feel bound up with you utterly — I cannot any longer imagine life without you — without you I should fade into nothingness — I love you not only with all my heart and mind, and also in some new way, more profound and instinctive — I don’t know how to explain it — but it is what makes me feel that physically I should not survive if you died or I lost you —

I will call for you and Miles4 20 minutes after leaving this, for finance Comee. — Tonight at 6 the conspirators meet again — probably they will be finished by 8.30. Dearest love, I do wish we could be together tonight — it is my only chance this week — at any rate for supper?

Dearest, Darling, you cannot know how utterly you are my light and my life.

B.

• 1

  [document] Document 200152.

• 2

  to write yesterday Her letter of 18 June 1917 (BRACERS 113033).

• 3

  your mood Sunday evening In her letter she  mentioned the “dreadfully silent mood” she had fallen into at his Bury Street flat.

• 4

  MilesMiles Malleson, Colette’s husband. For further information on him, see BRACERS 19046, n.4.