BR TO CONSTANCE MALLESON, [5 DEC. 1916]
BRACERS 19114. ALS. McMaster
Edited by S. Turcon. Reviewed by K. Blackwell

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My Darling1^, 2

I have just heard that I am graciously permitted to go to Newhaven3 but I don’t know yet when the Court Martial is to be. I suppose we shall all go down together. I am thankful I shall have a chance to see C.A.4 —

I had rather hoped to find a letter from you here5 — I am worried and troubled — feeling tired, and thinking I ought to concentrate my energies more on work — my conscience keeps reproaching me. And I feel I have hurt you and that makes me dreadfully miserable — but if I have I couldn’t help it — There is a great deal to talk about. I feel it is so difficult to explain the troubled states of mind I get into or to make you see why they are necessary. Be patient with me if you can. Moods come and go — they just have to be endured till they pass. My love, my dear one.

B

• 1

  [document] Document 200086.

• 2

  [date] The date is assigned based on Allen’s upcoming court martial, referred to in BRACERS 19086, dated [6 Dec. 1916].

• 3

  Newhaven Where Clifford Allen’s court martial took place on 12 December 1916.

• 4

  C.A. (Reginald) Clifford Allen (1889–1939). For further information on him, see BRACERS 19046, n.7.

• 5

  here 57 Gordon Square. BR had returned from Garsington Manor.