BR TO OTTOLINE MORRELL, [10 MAY 1913]
BRACERS 17902. ALS. Morrell papers #771, Texas
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My Darling Love

I have just found your letter of Thursday, on my return from London. I was glad to hear, but the letter itself seems terribly unhappy. Dear Love, don’t feel depressed if you can help it — it must be frightfully difficult and tiring travelling with P. and J. and it makes everything complicated and takes away the spring of happiness. But Dearest those troubles pass, as you say. As far as you and I are concerned, I do feel things wonderfully happy now. In the train (which always helps me to think) I was thinking how much time has done for us. Till not long ago, my love was quite capable of turning to anger — now, that wouldn’t happen whatever you did. I know that now my life is irrevocably bound up with yours — it is more like the fixity of family ties — it would no longer be altered by anything I might see in you or think I saw. That makes it all restful, and leaves one free to get all the good without fretting over impossibilities. And I hope and believe that that will keep me from cruelties towards you in future. — Dear Heart, do try to feel all the warmth and depth and tenderness of my love — indeed it is always with you, every moment — I long for you to have what happiness you can in life — I know it isn’t much, but it may still be worth something. But perhaps you are happier by now, and all this will seem beside the mark.  I hope so.

Your letter was delayed because you put a Swiss stamp on by mistake. — Countess Léonie’s brother was horrible — physically loathsome. There is something of the same in her, but it is not so bad. Karin read me a reply to my Bergson article which she is sending to the Monist — it is good.3 Altogether I feel much pleased by Karin’s development.

Goodbye my Darling Darling. All my love is always with you and longs for your happiness.

Your
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  [document] Document 000771. Proofread against a colour scan of the original.

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  [envelope] The Lady Ottoline Morrell | Hôtel Riche-Mont | Lausanne | Switzerland. Pmk: CAMBRIDGE | 10.15 PM | 10 MAY 13

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  it is good. Karin Costelloe (Stephen), “An Answer to Mr. Bertrand Russell’s Article on the Philosophy of Bergson”, The Monist 24 (1914): 145–55.