BR TO OTTOLINE MORRELL, 5 OCT. 1911
BRACERS 17292. ALS. Morrell papers #210, Texas
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Trinity College,
Cambridge.1^, 2
Thursday night Oct. 5. ’11

My Darling Darling

Your little line posted at Innsbruck was waiting for me when I called at Chelsea P. O., and no doubt the letter you sent to Camb. will reach me tomorrow. I am glad to know you reached Innsbruck alive, but I am afraid you were terribly exhausted. Darling, thank you for all you write and all you are. I find Mrs W. apparently rather better, but the talk has been rather worrying in a way. Following your first suggestion I had given her a hint, about things repeated to Miss Sands. I found it had worried her so I had to tell her exactly what was said, because I knew the impossibility of her having said it would soothe her. You would have agreed that I ought to tell her if you had been there — it was a necessary kindness. She was very angry with Alys and at first declared she would not go on seeing her, but afterwards modified that, because she felt Alys more likely to take public action if she broke with her. Naturally I didn’t support this, but when she asked me my view, I had to say it agreed with hers. Alys told her Miss Sands said you didn’t care and only acquiesced on account of my extreme pressure. Their object of course is to promote a quarrel between you and her and thence between me and her. I entirely reassured her as to you, and it would never have entered her head that you wanted to make mischief.

It appears Roger told Dickinson about us — how much I don’t know, but a good deal. Alys told Mrs W. that you had told Dora Sanger. Mrs W. doesn’t yet know whether that means that Alys told Dora, or not. She says Alys takes drugs and has grown more unreliable than she ever was, and is altogether morally at a low ebb. It is very depressing, and I feel it all my fault, tho’ it is not really. She says one can’t yet be sure that Alys won’t go for a divorce.

I had a pleasant visit to Margaret. Fru Äuke, a Norwegian suffragist whom I had met before, was there — not unpleasant.

Don’t bother your head about the unpleasantnesses — none of them are important. I feel quite certain Alys will not go for a divorce, and I really know her better than Mrs W. does. But if Mrs W. broke with her I think she might.

It all makes me long more than ever for you to be back. Everything is simple when you are there — not that I am worried, for I am not in the least. Dearest Love, I feel you are tired and not very happy. It is dreadful not to be with you always — yet the thought of you does give me a deep permanent happiness, and at bottom I feel nothing matters while I have you and your love. But I do long to be with you. Goodnight my Darling my Life my Ottoline. All my soul goes to you.

Yr
B.

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