BR TO OTTOLINE MORRELL, 22 SEPT. [1911]
BRACERS 17269. ALS. Morrell papers #188, Texas
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Friday 22nd Sp.1^, 2

My Dearest Dearest

Your letter telling of Mother Julian’s death has just come. You know you have my very deepest sympathy — I wish I could be with you to share your sorrow. I know all she was to you Dearest. I feel almost as if I had known her — when you spoke of her a reflection of her came to me, and I know she must have been a very beautiful spirit. What she gave you you will always have — the most spiritual gifts are the last perishable and the least dependent on the life of the giver. A few people in the world show how life can be lived — they are the people who give one courage and hope and the belief that it is worthwhile to struggle on, that in the end there is something attainable. Without them life would be very hard. I shall never be among those who have securely achieved — my life will always be a battle — but I don’t feel that with you — and I see what you owe to her. Dearest, one can never feel death anything but a blessing for those who die, but for the survivors who loved them it is hard.

All day yesterday my mind was full of death and the loss of friends — at night I wrote you a long letter about it,3 but it is not appropriate now so I am not sending it. It is strange my thoughts should have been so full of it. Dearest, Dearest, all my heart goes out to you in your sorrow and my great love enfolds you.

Your
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  [document] Document 000188. Proofread against a colour scan of the original.

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  long letter about it The letter is that of 21 September 1911 (BRACERS 17268.