BR TO OTTOLINE MORRELL, [30 JULY 1911]
BRACERS 17242. ALS. Morrell papers #162, Texas
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Trinity College,
Cambridge.1^, 2
Sunday night.

My Darling

I am so longing to be with you that I must write you a line. I was so full of affairs earlier in the day that I couldn’t write a proper letter, but now they are polished off and my mind is free. It seems such a waste every moment that I am not with you. I shouldn’t feel that if I were writing more stuff to show you, but when the time goes in other things it seems so unimportant. I read over the stuff I had done, more coldly and critically than before. It was obvious to me that it would have to be said at considerable length if any one was to understand it who didn’t know it all already. It will have to be a whole book. What has been written might do as a summary at the end.

Darling I am so glad you feel well and up to reading.

It is such a relief when you are well.

Our days were more wonderful to me than anything I had ever imagined. I felt no doubts or difficulties after the first moments, and it seemed like inspiration seeing things clearly at last which I had groped after for many years. It is very seldom that one’s inmost being is altered. Mine was nine and ten years ago; it began to be as soon as I began really to know you, but it was not complete till these last days. I had not supposed it possible to learn wisdom in the midst of happiness. Dearest, my whole nature calls to you and goes out to you in utter love and communion — and gratitude if that were not a word implying more division than I feel. You make me dare to think and feel what it really is my best nature to think and feel — it is like emerging into sunlight from a cavern. I feel such new power — as tho’ shackles had fallen from my mind. O Dearest, our love is great and wonderful. I no longer see you alone on a promontory in the storm — I feel you and I are really united now in fulfilling the purpose which we share.

Goodnight my Life. With all my best I love you.

Your
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