BR TO OTTOLINE MORRELL, [6 JUNE 1911]
BRACERS 17178. ALS. Morrell papers #103, Texas
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Trinity College,
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Tuesday 1.30

My Darling

It was very nice getting two letters this morning, and they made up for yesterday. Your letter of yesterday came just as I was beginning my lecture, and I had to wait an hour before reading it, which was very trying. I am sorry about Donne — I thought I had said Herbert. But he has no merit except exquisite style. It is a sad fact that almost all the best prose stylists write dull stuff — Milton and Carlyle are almost the only exceptions. I didn’t imagine you would find anything attractive in Walton’s sentiments. But I don’t think Donne was smug — the smugness all comes from Walton I think. — I was only joking about getting tiresome. I should bear it patiently if you couldn’t manage a meeting, because I have it fixed in my mind that I must not ask too much or make difficulties — but hitherto you have not tried me severely in that way. — July won’t be any worse than other times if you can be in London July 7 — I am only away a fortnight altogether, and I am in London a night in the middle. August and September will be the trying time I think. — Yes Darling we must get more time together later, when things have settled down. We shall both be able to arrange things so that it will be easy to meet. I long with my whole soul to be with you — every moment away from you seems wasted. It is life and joy and peace to be with you. Sometimes the hunger for you grows almost too great — only that it makes me know how perfect it will be when we are together again. I feel that in our differences you are wholly good for me; I have too much asperity and impatience, too great readiness to break things because they are not absolutely all that could be wished, too much ruthlessness. In all these things you help me — apart, I mean, from the help you give by your love itself.

Charlie Sanger was very nice last night. I found myself telling him the bare fact that Alys was going to live with Logan. He is the sort of friend who might disapprove to any extent, but would be no less a friend. That sort of friend is very restful. I remember so well telling him of my engagement. I began “Now I am going to tell you something that will shock you”. At this time he protested he was not shocked; some hours later he came and said that on reflection he found he was shocked.

I will wire my train when I hear from you. I can’t tell you how I long for tomorrow — I don’t know how to wait through the time. Dearest, Dearest, I love you with all my heart and soul — I live only in the thought of you — you are my Sun and moon and stars —

Your
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