BR TO OTTOLINE MORRELL, [30 JUNE 1911]
BRACERS 17174. ALS. Morrell papers #91, Texas
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Trinity College,
Cambridge.1
Friday night2

My Dearest Dearest

In spite of obstacles this has been a wonderful time to me — I have felt a more absolute union than ever before. I cannot tell you how complete I felt it. Of course I was sorry you were tired and worried, but it didn’t seem to make any essential difference. I don’t suppose Lamb will make any trouble after you have talked to him. So I don’t feel any real worry about him. He’s not a patch on dear Jane.

The sense of peace I have when I am with you is quite extraordinary — I had thoughts there could be no such peace till one’s death — it didn’t seem to me that in anybody’s life it could be possible. I keep thinking of Othello speaking of “the very sea-mark of my utmost sail”. And yeta I never feel the present moment so perfect that the future can’t be better — I feel that the power of loving and the power of being happy seem to be capable of growing and growing, and that our love has infinity within it, and will grow as long as we live.  It was delightful reading the Plato — we must go on with him when we meet next — I mean when I am next at Peppard. I am always glad when we have read together, altho’ it is not easy to read much.

My heart, I am always on the verge of thanking you for all you are to me, only I feel that would be absurd. I sometimes tell you how unhappy I used to be, because I want you really to know the difference you have made. You might so easily think, to see me now, that I was happy by nature, and so you would do yourself an injustice.

Darling I wish I could refrain from keeping you up late, but it is beyond me. You will have to be grumpy and make me wish to be rid of you when it gets late.

Has Julian got Lear’s Nonsense Rhymes etc.? If not may I give them to her? I want very much to give her something.

Goodnight my Joy. I am yours utterly and absolutely.

B

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  [document] Document 000091. Proofread against a colour scan of the original.

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  [date] Dated by the query as to whether Julian Morrell has Lear’s Nonsense Rhymes and the assumption that record 17216 was a rapid follow-up.

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