BR TO OTTOLINE MORRELL, [27 MAY 1911]
BRACERS 17160. ALS. Morrell papers #86, Texas
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Trinity College,
Cambridge.1^, 2
Saturday morning In the train.

My Darling

Two letters from you this morning were a great joy, and they hold out hopes of another when I get to Carlyle Sq. I have lost all feeling of apprehension, and am as happy as a lark. It is partly the mere change, and the fact that a journey makes me feel as if I were doing something about it. Sitting still doing nothing is always trying.

I love to think of you in the country again, and I hope beginning to get rested. Miss Sands I should think would be a restful person — respectful to strong feelings, with the same respect she would give to an Old Master. I have never got on with Miss Hudson, and was relieved to have you confirm me.

This train shakes so abominably that writing is almost impossible.

Dearest you need not trouble about me and my being tired — I am all right. But the fear of injuring you — and of injuring P. and Julian, for that comes into my feelings too — makes me dumb about other things. However, that will soon have passed now. And nothing they can do has any power to touch our inward feelings. When I come on Tuesday you will find me all right, and quite able to banish them from my mind. Goodbye Dearest, My Ottoline, I love you with all my being, and it really is an unselfish love, however much it may seem as if it would bring you harm. But it shan’t, whatever may be necessary. I believe whatever happened we could keep the peace of God which passeth all understanding — which you have given me. Goodbye my Life.

Yr
B.

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