BRACERS Record Detail for 17152

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Collection code
RA3
Recent acquisition no.
69
Document no.
000079
Box no.
2.54
Filed
OM scans 19_1_1: 37
Source if not BR
Texas, U. of, HRC
Recipient(s)
Morrell, Ottoline
Sender(s)
BR
Date
1911/05/23*
Form of letter
ALS(M)
Pieces
1E
BR's address code (if sender)
TC
Notes and topics

"Tuesday night My Darling I will reach you at 10.30 tomorrow if that is not too early for you."

Transcription

BR TO OTTOLINE MORRELL, [23 MAY 1911]
BRACERS 17152. ALS. Morrell papers #79, Texas
Proofread by K. Blackwell et al.


<letterhead>
Trinity College,
Cambridge.1, 2
Tuesday night

My Darling

I will reach you at 10.30 tomorrow if that is not too early for you. I am glad too that it is over with Logan. It must have been very painful and difficult. I suppose he was very emotional and upset. I am afraid you must have found it very trying — it would seem natural he should also come to me, but perhaps he thinks that useless. Alys has such power that it is not to be wondered at if he was a bit wild — and of course he would believe all she said. I am sorry you have had all this to cope with, but it couldn’t well have been helped, so far as I can see. Alys had to be told, because she would soon have found out for herself; and when once she was told, the rest was almost bound to follow. I think she will quiet down, probably before long; but it is important to keep her from desperate measures of any sort meanwhile. She doesn’t, I think, wish to see me before June 17; if she did I would go, but she didn’t seem to wish it. I hate having all the burden and sordidness of it come upon you, but it doesn’t seem avoidable. It is plain from your letter that is was very bad. But, Dearest, I am glad you are calm still. They won’t really hurt us, tho’ of course they could. I long to be with you, and to rest in each other. Also I want very much to know what he said and how much effect you produced. It must make it more trying having your lady — she comes very frequently. Darling, I long to bring you nothing but happiness — it is dreadful bringing so much besides. Yet I would not screen you from anything you ought to know about.

My difficulty with Alys is really that all our relations have grown false — there is no confidence or trust on either side, we watch each other suspiciously, and suspect each other’s motives. That sort of relation seems so bad that I can’t feel it worth preserving, except temporarily to help her through a bad time, or to avoid scandal. She won’t let me learn to trust her, because she prefers to be crooked.3 It is all very hopeless. But I am sure it will settle down in time.

Goodnight my Dearest. Tomorrow we shall have each other.

Your loving

B.

  • 1

    [document] Document 000079. Proofread against a colour scan of the original.

  • 2

    [envelope] A circled “79”.

  • 3

    crooked “bent or twisted out of shape or position” (Concise O.E.D., 2002).

Permission
Everyone
Transcription Public Access
Yes
Record no.
17152
Record created
Sep 13, 1990
Record last modified
Jun 23, 2025
Created/last modified by
blackwk