BR TO OTTOLINE MORRELL, [27 MAY 1911]
BRACERS 135243. ALS. Morrell papers #102A, Texas
Proofread by K. Blackwell and A.G. Bone

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Trinity College,
Cambridge1
Monday evg.2

My Darling

I had forgotten it was Bank Holiday and kept hoping for a letter. It is hard to get through 48 hours without a letter, but I look for a great reward tomorrow. Last Bank Holiday I travelled from Fernhurst to Southampton on my way to Studland. I was terribly impatient, and full of fears that something would prevent our meeting. The time at Studland made a permanent difference — since then I have felt that whatever happened we had had the perfection of love, and nothing can take that away from us. But I feel just as impatient still, because I know better what joy it will be. Before Studland I had some nervousness as to how you would feel and a great deal of shyness. Now I know that it is always perfect in every way when we are together.

Tonight Sanger dines with me in Hall. He is examining in the economics Tripos. Karin came for a moment to return some things I had lent her — she thinks she did badly in her tripos. I shall be greatly disappointed if she doesn’t get a first. She said she would be more sorry for me than for herself if that happened. I wondered to myself whether it was the last time I should ever see her. I mind very much about her. She has more philosophical capacity than I have ever seen before in a woman, and now she will probably give up philosophy altogether. It is very unfortunate, but it can’t be helped. It is equally unfortunate that you can’t see her. Now she will be left to her mother, and very likely go to the dogs. I feel rather guilty — it is all because I was too hasty with Alys. However it is no use crying over spilt milk.

Now I must post this and stop. I can’t tell you how I am longing to be with you, my dearest Life. All my thoughts are with you all day long my Darling. I send you a long long kiss with all my soul.

Your
B.

Notes

• 1

  [document] Document 000102A. Proofread against a colour scan of the original.

• 2

  [date] Dated by BR’s saying the day was a Bank Holiday and his mentioning that “Last Bank Holiday I travelled from Fernhurst to Southampton on my way to Studland.” The last was 6 May.