"Monday"

The worries: "They involve nothing in any way sordid, nothing discreditable to anybody, only anxiety and solid pain, which I, by a chance, have power to relieve when no one else can. What I have been able to do in this way is the most useful thing in my life apart from work. Some years back when I had lost self-respect and faith, it was the only thing that kept me from suicide. I knew that my death must ultimately bring disaster."*

*This may refer to Russell supplying Mrs. Whitehead with money. See also letter no. 412, record 17509.